in which the light of disease painfully burned, and
said,—’You do well not to reproach
me; the time for that is past, for I am, as you may
see, on the verge of the grave. I have striven
with disease, that I might reach this place, and if
possible, obtain your forgiveness ’ere my eyes
shall close in death. I know I have darkened
a life, which, but for me, might have been bright
and joyous. It is too much for me to expect your
forgiveness, yet I would hear you pronounce that blessed
word before I die. You may now believe
me when I say, that it was my love for you which led
me to deceive you. Knowing my wife’s dread
of any publicity being attached to her name, I thought
the knowledge that I had a living wife would never
reach you. Of the sinfulness of my conduct I did
not at that time pause to think. I now sincerely
thank my wife for preventing a marriage which in the
sight of God, must have been but mockery. I now
speak truly when I say to you, I never loved my wife;
I married her for money. As I had no affection
for her, my former habits of dissipation soon regained
their hold on me. It will afford me some comfort
to know that I have made strictly true confession
to you. I have not, to my knowledge, a living
relation in the wide world; and, till I met with you,
I knew not the meaning of the word love; and I still
believe that, had I met you earlier in life, your
influence would have caused me to become a useful
man and an ornament to my profession. But it is
useless to talk now of what cannot be recalled.
When I left this village, years ago, I was equally
indifferent as to whither I went or what I did.
I felt no wish to return to my wife; and, had I been
then inclined, I well knew the just contempt and scorn
I should meet with, although I believe she had once
loved me. But I knew them to be a proud family,
and I felt certain they would never overlook the disgrace
and sorrow I had brought upon them. I have never
since seen my wife, but I lately learned that she,
with the rest of her family, removed to a western city
some years ago. Since leaving this place I have
wandered far and wide, never remaining long in one
place. My mind has never been at rest, and, for
that reason, I have been a lonely wanderer all these
years. But my dissipated habits have done their
work, and I feel that my earthly course is well nigh
ended. I have dragged my feeble body to your dwelling,
with the hope of obtaining your forgiveness ‘ere
I am summoned into eternity.’
“While listening to him, I had seated myself at my father’s side. As he concluded, I said to my father, in a low voice,—’If we forgive not our fellow-mortal, how can we expect the forgiveness of our Heavenly Father for our many sins?’ I rose from my seat and extending to him hand, said,—’You have, Mr. Almont, my entire forgiveness for all the sorrow you have caused me, and I hope you will also obtain the forgiveness of God.’ My father also came forward, and, taking his hand, granted him his forgiveness.