as was my custom, a chapter in my Bible, and commending
myself to the care of Heaven, I sought my pillow;
but hour after hour passed away and sleep refused to
visit my eyes. Again and again I mentally asked
myself what had I done to merit the coldness which
Mrs. Leighton had shown in her manner to me? It
was not my fault that Willie had sought me, and in
a kind and gentlemanly manner escorted me home; and
I only attributed his attention to that respect which
the
real gentleman ever accords to a lady, be
she rich or poor. I, however, decided that in
future I should receive no attentions from Willie.
The Leightons were kind, but extremely proud, and I
feared that the pleasure Willie had lately evinced
in my society had displeased them, although his attentions
had been nothing more than a person socially inclined
might be expected to show to one dwelling beneath the
same roof. Again did the remark made by Mrs. Kingsley
occur to my mind, and I firmly decided that, if Mrs.
Leighton was displeased, she should have no further
cause for displeasure, for I too was possessed of a
proud spirit. The dawn of the new day glimmered
in the east ’ere sleep closed my eyes, and then
my slumbers were disturbed by unpleasant dreams.
One dream, in particular, I still remember. I
seemed, in my dream, to be a homeless wanderer I know
not whither. I had left the limits of the city
and was walking in the open country, on a road that
seemed strange and unfamiliar to me. At length
such a feeling of loneliness and misery overpowered
me that I felt unable to proceed further. Seating
myself by the roadside, I burst into tears. Raising
my eyes, I observed a female figure approaching me,
which I soon recognized as my mother. She drew
near, and, laying her hands upon my head, as if in
blessing, said,—
“Fear not, my beloved daughter, only continue
in the path of duty and all will yet be well.”
With a cry of joy, I sprang forward to embrace her,
and awoke to find the sun shining dimly through the
partially closed blinds of my window. I felt
fatigued and nervous, after passing such a restless
night. I was startled by the pale and haggard
countenance which my mirror reflected that morning.
I had scarcely finished my toilet when the breakfast
bell rang, and I hastened down stairs, where the family
were already assembled around the breakfast table.
Whatever of displeasure Mrs. Leighton might have felt
the previous evening seemed to have vanished with
the light of morning. Perhaps, thought I, her
displeasure existed only in my own imagination, after
all. Noticing my pale countenance, she enquired
if I was ill? I replied that I had a slight headache,
owing to my not having slept well. She kindly
offered to excuse me from attending to my pupils that
morning, but I told her that I felt quite able to
attend to my usual duties. In the course of the
day I mentioned to her the case of the poor woman who
had called the day previous. She replied that,