He was quite sure that he loved her.  But he was also sure, with a strong sense of pride in her, that she would have refused him, not on mercenary grounds, for Fanny he knew would have shared a crust and hovel with the man she loved; but Fanny would love the man too well to consent to the crust and the hovel, on his own account.  She would not have said in so many words, “What! marry you, a minister so poor that a begging fair has to be held to pay his salary?” She would have not refused him her love and sympathy, but she would have let him down so gently from the high prospect of matrimony that he would have suffered no jolt.

Elliot was a good fellow.  It was on the girl’s account that he suffered.  He suffered, as a matter of course.  He wanted Fanny badly, but he realized himself something of a cad.  He discounted his own suffering; perhaps, as he told himself with sudden suspicion of self-conceit, he overestimated hers.  Still, he was sure that the girl would suffer more than he wished.  He blamed himself immeasurably.  He tried to construct air castles which would not fall, even before the impact of his own thoughts, in which he could marry this girl and live with her happily ever after, but the man had too much common sense.  He did not for a moment now consider the possibility of stepping, without influence, into a fat pastorate.  He was sure that he could count confidently upon nothing better than this.

The next morning he looked about his room wearily, and a plan which he had often considered grew upon him.  He got the keys of the unoccupied parsonage next door, from Mrs. Black, and went over the house after breakfast.  It was rather a spacious house, old, but in tolerable preservation.  There was a southeast room of one story in height, obviously an architectural afterthought, which immediately appealed to him.  It was practically empty except for charming possibilities, but it contained a few essentials, and probably the former incumbent had used it as a study.  There was a wood stove, a standing desk fixed to the wall, some shelves, an old table, and a couple of armchairs.  Wesley at once resolved to carry out his plan.  He would move his small store of books from his bedroom at Mrs. Black’s, arrange them on the shelves, and set up his study there.  He was reasonably sure of obtaining wood enough for a fire to heat the room when the weather was cold.

He returned and told Mrs. Black, who agreed with him that the plan was a good one.  “A minister ought to have his study,” said she, “and of course the parsonage is at your disposal.  The parish can’t rent it.  That room used to be the study, and you will have offers of all the wood you want to heat it.  There’s plenty of cut wood that folks are glad to donate.  They’ve always sent loads of wood to heat the minister’s study.  Maybe they thought they’d stand less chance of hell fire if they heated up the gospel in this life.”

“Then I’ll move my books and writing materials right over there,” said Elliot with a most boyish glee.