“Sure, you have not been sitting all this time here in the cold.  You should have gone where it was warm, or rung for Esmerelda to kindle your fire.”

I rose and tried to walk across the room; but staggered and would have fallen only that she supported me.

“Are you sick, Medoline?” She asked, in great alarm.

“My head aches and I am very hot,” I said uncertainly.  I was unused to sickness and scarcely knew how much pain was necessary before I could truthfully say I was ill.  I remember thinking the matter over with great seriousness, and wishing Mrs. Blake, with her superior knowledge of bodily ailments, was there to decide, until at last I got tired and tried to forget all about it.  Then everything began to grow uncertain.  I knew that I was lying in bed and the fire burning brightly in the grate, while persons were passing to and fro; but they did not look familiar.  I kept wishing so much that Mrs. Blake would come with her strong, cheery presence to comfort me, and if she would give me a drink of pure cold water from one of her own clean glasses I should be content to turn my face to the wall and sleep.  But after a time my one despairing thought was Mr. Winthrop’s displeasure, while hour after hour, and day after day, I tried to tell him that I did not mean to deceive him, and wanted to be just to every one alike, but he was never convinced and used to come and go with the same stern, hard look on his face that nearly broke my heart.  When just at the point of utter despair, when I thought all had turned against me, Mr. Bowen or Mrs. Blake used to step up and tell me they understood it all and believed in me, then for awhile I would shut my eyes and rest, only to open them again to plead once more for forgiveness; but to plead vainly.  Then I would be on the point of leaving Oaklands forever, and bidding good-bye to every one in the household save Mr. Winthrop.  He always turned away sternly and refused me his hand.  I was not conscious when it was day or night.  It was all one perpetual twilight.  I would ask if the sun would never rise again, or the moon come back with her soft shining; but no one heeded my questions.  I resolved to be so patient after this in answering people’s questions when their heads were full of pain, since I knew how sad it was to go on day after day with these puzzling, wearying questions haunting one.  Then there came a long, quiet time of utter forgetfulness when I passed down into the very valley of the shadow that Death casts over the nearly disembodied spirit, and here I had rest.

When at last I opened my eyes to see the old, accustomed place and faces, I was like a little child.

I lay quiet for some time wondering if it were possible for me to lift my hand.  It was night, for the lamp was burning, and some one was sitting just within the shadow the lamp shade cast.  I hoped it was Mrs. Blake, and lay wondering how I could find out.  I tried to lift my head, but found the effort so wearying I went back into brief unconsciousness.  Presently my eyes opened again; but this time there was a face bending over my bed, so that I had no need to muster my feeble forces to attract their attention.  I smiled up weakly into the face that in the dim light I failed to recognize.