of nights in bed, that she had spent a brief space
before falling asleep in dreaming of going to seek
her mother. But whole months had passed without
any such thought; and during these long interludes
the healthy country scenes about her, and the common
causes for smiles and tears in a child’s life,
filled her consciousness. Still, the undercurrent
of the deeper life was there, and very small incidents
were strong enough to bring it to the surface.
Molly had short daily lessons from the clergyman’s
daughter, a young lady who also took a cheerful, airy
view of the child, and said she would grow out of her
little faults in time. In one of these lessons
Molly learnt with surprising eagerness how to find
France for herself on the map. That France was
much nearer to England than to India, and how it was
usual to cross the Channel were facts easily acquired.
Molly was amazingly backward in her lessons, or she
must have learnt these things before. When lessons
were over and she went out into the garden, instead
of running as usual she walked so slowly that Mrs.
Carteret, while talking to the gardener, actually
wondered what was in that child’s mind.
Molly was living through again the parting with the
ayah. She could feel the intensely familiar touch
of the soft, dark hand; she could see the adoring
love of the dark eyes with their passionate anger at
the separation. The woman had to be revenged
on her enemies who were tearing the child from her.
“They deceive you,” she said. “The
beautiful mother is not dead; she lives in France,
not England; they will try to keep you from her, but
the faithful child will find a way.”
Molly unconsciously in her own mind had already begun
to put these words into English, whereas a year before
she would have kept to the ayah’s own language.
But in either language those words came to her as
the last message from that other life of warmth and
love and colour in which she had once been a queen.
Indeed, every English child brought home from India
is a sovereign dethroned. And the repetition of
the ayah’s last words gave utterance to a sense
of wrong that Molly nourished against her present
rulers and against the world in which she was not
understood.
That same day Mrs. Carteret spoke sharply and with
indignation because Molly had trodden purely by accident
on the pug; and her aunt said that the one thing with
which she had no patience was cruelty to animals—whereas
the child was passionately fond of animals. Again,
on that same day, Molly fell into a very particularly
dirty little pond near the cowshed at the farm.
Mary, the nurse, no doubt was the sufferer, and she
said that she did not suppose that black nurses minded
being covered with muck—how should they?—and
she supposed she must be treated as if she were a
negro herself, but time would show whether she were
a black slave or an Englishwoman with a house of her
own which she could have now if she liked for the
asking. While Mary spoke she pushed and pulled,
and, in general treated Molly’s small person
as something unpleasant, and to be kept at a distance.
Once clean and dressed again, Molly sat down quite
quietly to consider the ways and means of getting
to France, with the result already told.