the Avenue des Champs Elysees began, a powdery haze
enveloped the equipages, overblown with their summer
toilets, all speeding to Longchamps. It was racing
day, and Ermentrude, feigning a headache, had insisted
that her uncle and aunt go to the meeting. It
would amuse them, she knew, and she wished to be alone.
Nearly a week had passed since the visit to Neuilly,
and she had been afraid to ask her aunt what Madame
Keroulan had imparted to her—afraid and
also too proud. Her sensibility had been grievously
wounded by the plainly expressed feelings of Octave
Keroulan. She had reviewed without prejudice
his behaviour, and she could not set down to mere
Latin gallantry either his words or his action.
No, there was too much intensity in both,—ah,
how she rebelled at the brutal disillusionment!—and
there were, she argued, method and sequence in his
approach and attack. If she had been the average
coquetting creature, the offence might not have been
so mortal. But, so she told herself again and
again,—as if to frighten away lurking darker
thoughts, ready to spring out and devour her good
resolutions,—she had worshipped her idol
with reservations. His poetry, his philosophy,
were so inextricably blended that they smote her nerves
like the impact of some bright perfume, some sharp
chord of modern music. Dangerously she had filed
at her emotions in the service of culture and she
was now paying the penalty for her ardent confidence.
His ideas, vocal with golden meanings, were never
meant to be translated into the vernacular of life,
never to be transposed from higher to lower levels;
this base betrayal of his ideals she felt Keroulan
had committed. Had he not said that love should
be like “un baiser sur un miroir”?
Was he, after all, what the princess had called him?
And was he only a mock sun swimming in a firmament
of glories which he could have outshone?
A servant knocked and, not receiving a response, entered
with a letter. The superscription was strange.
She opened and read:—
DEAR AND TENDER CHILD:
I know you were angry with me when
we parted. I am
awaiting here below your answer to come to you and
bare my heart.
Say yes!
“Is the gentleman downstairs?” she asked.
The servant bowed. The blood in her head buzzing,
she nodded, and the man disappeared. Standing
there in the bright summer light, Ermentrude Adams
saw her face in the oval glass, above the fireplace,
saw its pallor, the strained expression of the eyes,
and like a drowning person she made a swift inventory
of her life, and, with the insane hope of one about
to be swallowed up by the waters, she grasped at a
solitary straw. Let him come; she would have an
explanation from him! The torture of doubt might
then be brought to an end....
Some one glided into the apartment. Turning quickly,
Ermentrude recognized Madame Keroulan. Before
she could orient herself that lady took her by both
hands, and uttering apologetic words, forced the amazed
girl into a chair.