The Helpmate eBook

This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 453 pages of information about The Helpmate.

The Helpmate eBook

This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 453 pages of information about The Helpmate.

“Look after me?” Her face brightened, “Like you used to?”

“Provide for you.”

“Oh!” she cried. “That!  I don’t want to be provided for.  I won’t have it.  I’d rather be let alone and die.”

“Maggie, I know it’s hard on you.  Don’t make it harder.  Don’t make it hard for me.”

“You?” she sobbed.

“Yes, me.  It’s all wrong.  I’m all wrong.  I can’t do the right thing, whatever I do.  It’s wrong to stay with you.  It’s wrong, it’s brutally wrong to leave you.  But that’s what I’ve got to do.”

“You said—­you only said—­just now—­you’d got to end it.”

“That’s it.  I’ve got to end it.”

She stood up flaming.

“End it then.  End it this minute.  Give up the farm.  Send me away.  I’ll go anywhere you tell me.  Only don’t say you won’t come and see me.”

“See you?  Don’t you understand, Maggie, that seeing you is what I’ve got to give up?  The other things don’t matter.”

“Ah,” she cried, “it’s you who don’t understand.  I mean—­I mean—­see me like you used to.  That’s all I want, Wallie.  Only just to see you.  That wouldn’t be awful, would it?  There wouldn’t be any sin in that?”

Sin?  It was the first time she had ever said the word.  The first time, he imagined, she had formed the thought.

“Poor little girl,” he said.  “No, no, dear, it wouldn’t do.  It sounds simple, but it isn’t.”

“But,” she said, bewildered, “I love you.”

He smiled.  “That’s why, Maggie, that’s why.  You’ve been very sweet and very good to me.  And that’s why I mustn’t see you.  That’s how you make it hard for me.”

Maggie sat down and put her elbows on the table and hid her face in her hands.

“Will you give me some tea?” he said abruptly.

She rose.

“It’s all stewed.  I’ll make fresh.”

“No.  That’ll do.  I can’t wait.”

She gave him his tea.  Before he tasted it he got up and poured out a cup for her.  She drank a little at his bidding, then pushed the cup from her, choking.  She sat, not looking at him, but looking away, through the window, across the garden and the fields.

“I must go now,” he said.  “Don’t come with me.”

She started to her feet.

“Ah, let me come.”

“Better not.  Much better not.”

“I must,” she said.

They set out along the field-track.  Steve, carrying his master’s luggage, went in front, at a little distance.  He didn’t want to see them, still less to hear them speak.

But they did not speak.

At the creek’s bank Steve was ready with the boat.

Majendie took Maggie’s hand and pressed it.  She flung herself on him, and he had to loose her hold by main force.  She swayed, clutching at him to steady herself.  He heard Steve groan.  He put his hand on her shoulder, and kept it there a moment, till she stood firm.  Her eyes, fixed on his, struck tears from them, tears that cut their way like knives under his eyelids.

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