The strength and pride of manhood is gone; your heart and soul have stamped their deepest dye; the time of power is past; your manliness has told its tale henceforth your career is down;—­hitherto you have journeyed up.  You look back upon a decade as you once looked upon a half score of months; a year has become to your slackened memory, and to your dull perceptions, like a week of childhood.  Suddenly and swiftly come past you great whirls of gone-by thought, and wrecks of vain labor, eddying upon the stream that rushes to the grave.  The sweeping outlines of life, that lay once before the vision,—­rolling into wide billows of years, like easy lifts of a broad mountain-range,—­now seem close-packed together as with a Titan hand, and you see only crowded, craggy heights,—­like Alpine fastnesses,—­parted with glaciers of grief, and leaking abundant tears!

Your friends are gone; they who counselled and advised you, and who protected your weakness, will guard it no more forever.  One by one they have dropped away as you have journeyed on; and yet your journey does not seem a long one.  Life at the longest is but a bubble that bursts so soon as it is rounded.

Nelly—­your sweet sister, to whom your heart clung so fondly in the young days, and to whom it has clung ever since in the strongest bonds of companionship—­is gone—­with the rest!

Your thought—­wayward now, and flickering—­runs over the old days with quick and fevered step; it brings back, faintly as it may, the noisy joys, and the safety, that belonged to the old garret-roof; it figures again the image of that calm-faced father,—­long since sleeping beside your mother; it rests like a shadow upon the night when Charlie died; it grasps the old figures of the schoolroom, and kindles again (how strange is memory) the fire that shed its lustre upon the curtains, and the ceiling, as you lay groaning with your first hours of sickness.

Your flitting recollection brings back with gushes of exultation the figure of that little, blue-eyed hoiden,—­Madge,—­as she came with her work to pass the long evenings with Nelly; it calls again the shy glances that you cast upon her, and your naive ignorance of all the little counter-play that might well have passed between Frank and Nelly.  Your mother’s form too, clear and distinct, comes upon the wave of your rocking thought; her smile touches you now in age as it never touched you in boyhood.

The image of that fair Miss Dalton, who led your fancy into such mad captivity, glides across your vision like the fragment of a crazy dream long gone by.  The country home, where lived the grandfather of Frank, gleams kindly in the sunlight of your memory; and still,—­poor, blind Fanny—­long since gathered to that rest where her closed eyes will open upon visions of joy—­draws forth a sigh of pity.