enabled her to make poor, blinded fool—her
helpless slave for evil. Merciful Mary! how
I did worship her! To me she was as an angel;
divinity lurked in her smile and found utterance upon
her lips. I could have died at her word, happy
to know it was her pleasure. Yet, as I know
now, all the love-making between us was no more than
play to her; she merely sought to amuse herself with
my passion through a dull season. No, not quite
all, for back of her smiles lurked a purpose so dark,
so diabolical, ’twas not strange I failed to
fathom it. ’Tis hard to associate crime
with such young womanhood, to feel that evil thoughts
lurk behind eyes soft with love and lips breathing
tenderness. Yet behind the outer angel of Marie
Fousard there was a devil incarnate. I was blind,
crazed, helpless to resist an evil I failed to perceive.
I loved her; in that passion all else was lost.
She had confessed love for me; in that was all the
heaven I desired. Little by little she fanned
within my heart a hatred for the man whose wife she
was, my comrade in arms. I cannot relate the
details, the stories of wrong, the lies, the upbraidings
which turned my blood to flame, picturing him ever
to me as a monster. Ah, it means much, Monsieur,
when such things are told with tears, when every sob
rings in the ears as though crying for vengeance.
I listened, believing it all, until deep in my heart
hate was born. Once she showed me her shoulder,
the white flesh discolored as if by a blow, swearing
that he did it. The sight maddened me to action.
I left her to seek him at the inn, cursing in my
teeth, and caring not what happened, so I killed him.
What boots now the insult offered which forced him
to the field? I can see his face yet, full of
wonder at my words, doubting my very sanity; yet I
saw only her and that bruised shoulder. I would
kill him, and I did, running my sword through his
body, and gazing down remorselessly into his glazing
eyes. What cared I for aught but her? It
was a duel, fairly fought, and I was safe from censure.
God! in that hour it never came to me that it was
foul murder; that I had stricken down an innocent
man at the word of a harlot.”
He stopped, his white face buried in his hands, his
slender form trembling. I remained motionless.
With an effort he resumed.
“I went back to her at our trysting-place, intoxicated
by my deed, confident she would come to my arms in
gratitude. Instead she laughed, tore from her
face the mask of innocence, called me fool, boasted
that she had merely used me for her own vile purposes.
I shrank away, horrified by my deed, despising her,
my love stricken dead. In that moment my life
was changed; I cared for nothing except to get away
from my fellows, to expiate my sin in the sight of
God. I felt no interest in what became of her;
I neither smiled nor wept, when, three days later,
she married the prefect of that village. All
was over; the fire within me had become ashes.”