upon me by authority; and therein I have been very
careful to avoid the wronging of any (a). (4).
As to my oath, I never meant it, nor do I know how
it can be otherwise construed, than as vulgarly and
every one understood; yea, and upon inquiry, it may
be found so worded also. (5.) As to any passage in
preaching or prayer, in that sore hour of distress
and darkness, I always intended but due justice on
each hand, and that not according to man, but God
(who knows all things most perfectly), however, through
weakness or sore exercise, I might sometimes, yea,
and possibly sundry times, unadvisedly expressed myself.
(6.) As to several that have confessed against themselves,
they being wholly strangers to me, but yet of good
account with better men than myself, to whom also
they are well known, I do not pass so much as a secret
condemnation upon them; but rather, seeing God has
so amazingly lengthened out Satan’s chain in
this most formidable outrage, I much more incline
to side with the opinion of those that have grounds
to hope better of them. (7.) As to all that have unduly
suffered in these matters (either in their persons
or relations), through the clouds of human weakness,
and Satan’s wiles and sophistry, I do truly
sympathize with them; taking it for granted that such
as drew themselves clear of this great transgression,
or that have sufficient grounds so to look upon their
dear friends, have hereby been under those sore trials
and temptations, that not an ordinary measure of true
grace would be sufficient to prevent a bewraying of
remaining corruption. (8.) I am very much in the mind,
and abundantly persuaded, that God (for holy ends,
though for what in particular is best known to himself)
has suffered the evil angels to delude us on both
hands, but how far on the one side or the other is
much above me to say. And, if we cannot reconcile
till we come to a full discerning of these things,
I fear we shall never come to agreement, or, at soonest,
not in this world. Therefore (9), in fine, The
matter being so dark and perplexed as that there is
no present appearance that all God’s servants
should be altogether of one mind, in all circumstances
touching the same, I do most heartily, fervently, and
humbly beseech pardon of the merciful God, through
the blood of Christ, of all my mistakes and trespasses
in so weighty a matter; and also all your forgiveness
of every offence in this and other affairs, wherein
you see or conceive I have erred and offended; professing,
in the presence of the Almighty God, that what I have
done has been, as for substance, as I apprehended
was duty,—however through weakness, ignorance,
&c., I may have been mistaken; I also, through grace,
promising each of you the like of me. And so
again, I beg, entreat, and beseech you, that Satan,
the devil, the roaring lion, the old dragon, the enemy
of all righteousness, may no longer be served by us,
by our envy and strifes, where every evil work prevails
whilst these bear sway (Isa. iii. 14-16); but that