a voice saying, “rise up and pray,” which
strengthened me. I fell on my knees and prayed
the best I could the Lord’s prayer. Knowing
no more to say, I halted, but continued on my knees.
My spirit was then taught to pray, “Lord,
have mercy on me—Christ save me.”
Immediately there appeared a director, clothed in white
raiment. I thought he took me by the hand and
said, “come with me.” He led me down
a long journey to a fiery gulf, and left me standing
upon the brink of this awful pit. I began to
scream for mercy, thinking I was about to be plunged
to the belly of hell, and believed I should sink to
endless ruin. Although I prayed and wrestled with
all my might, it seemed in vain. Still, I felt
all the while that I was sustained by some invisible
power. At this solemn moment, I thought I saw
a hand from which hung, as it were, a silver hair,
and a voice told me that all the hope I had of being
saved was no more than a hair; still, pray, and it
will be sufficient. I then renewed my struggle,
crying for mercy and salvation, until I found that
every cry raised me higher and higher, and my head
was quite above the fiery pillars. Then I thought
I was permitted to look straight forward, and saw the
Saviour standing with His hand stretched out to receive
me. An indescribably glorious light was in
Him, and He said, “peace, peace, come unto me.”
At this moment I felt that my sins were forgiven me,
and the time of my deliverance was at hand. I
sprang forward and fell at his feet, giving Him all
the thanks and highest praises, crying, Thou hast
redeemed me—Thou hast redeemed me to thyself.
I felt filled with light and love. At this moment
I thought my former guide took me again by the hand
and led me upward, till I came to the celestial world
and to heaven’s door, which I saw was open,
and while I stood there, a power surrounded me which
drew me in, and I saw millions of glorified spirits
in white robes. After I had this view, I thought
I heard a voice saying, “Art thou willing to
be saved?” I said, Yes Lord. Again I was
asked, “Art thou willing to be saved in my way?”
I stood speechless until he asked me again, “Art
thou willing to be saved in my way?” Then I
heard a whispering voice say, “If thou art not
saved in the Lord’s way, thou canst not be saved
at all;” at which I exclaimed, “Yes Lord,
in thy own way.” Immediately a light fell
upon my head, and I was filled with light, and I was
shown the world lying in wickedness, and was told
I must go there, and call the people to repentance,
for the day of the Lord was at hand; and this message
was as a heavy yoke upon me, so that I wept bitterly
at the thought of what I should have to pass through.
While I wept, I heard a voice say, “weep not,
some will laugh at thee, some will scoff at thee, and
the dogs will bark at thee, but while thou doest my
will, I will be with thee to the ends of the earth.”
I was at this time not yet thirteen years old. The next day, when I had come to myself, I felt like a new creature in Christ, and all my desire was to see the Saviour.