everything the sweet influence of it. There was
no snow on the lawn, which was a dry crisp of frost-killed
grass, as flat as if swept by a broom, and here and
there were the faintest patches and mottles of silver
from this moon, aside from a broad gleam of the garish
light from the street-lamp. The bushes and trees
showed lines of silver. The moon was so young
that the stars were quite brilliant. Taking all
the lights together—the electric light
in the street, the new moon, and the stars—the
lawn was quite visible, and even, because the leaves
were now all gone from the trees, the road for quite
a distance beyond. Charlotte had a considerable
vista in which to watch for her father. The time
passed incredibly in this watching. She had upon
her such a fear and even premonition that he might
not come, that the minutes passed with the horrible
swiftness that they pass for a criminal awaiting execution.
The first time she slipped out in the dining-room—with
a last look at the lawn and road, to be sure that
he would not be there in the mean time—to
see what time it was by the clock on the shelf, she
was amazed. It was already eight o’clock.
She had not dreamed it was more than half-past seven.
She crept back to her place by the parlor window,
with the feeling that much of her time of reprieve
had passed, and that she was so much the nearer the
certainty of tribulation. Instead of impatience
she had rather the desire to defer approaching disaster.
While she watched, she had less and less hope that
her father would come on that train, and yet she kept
her heart alive by picturing her rapture when she
should see his tall, dark figure enter the lawn path,
when she should run and unlock and unbar the door
and throw her arms around his neck. She made up
her mind that she should not confess to him what a
panic she had been in because of his non-arrival.
She planned how she would run and set the dinner,
in which she still believed, on the table, and how
hungry he would be for it. She was quite sure
that her poor father did not in these days provide
himself with sumptuous lunches in the city. But
all the time she reared these air-castles, she saw
for a certainty the dark sky of her trouble through
them. For some premonition, or a much modified
form of prophecy, the rudimentary expression of a
divine sense in reality exists. It existed in
Charlotte watching for her father at the window, and
yet so bound up was she in the probabilities and present
sequences of things that she still watched. Now
and then she made sure that she saw her father turn
from the road into the lawn, but the figure, to her
horror, would remain standing still in one place.
It was simply a slender spruce which had seemed to
start out of a corner of the night with a semblance
of life. Now and then she actually did see a
figure coming up the road, approaching the entrance
to the lawn, and her heart leaped up with joy.
She watched for it to enter, but that was the end.
Whoever it was, it had passed the house and gone farther
up the road. Those were the cruellest moments
of any—the momentary revival of hope and
then the dashing it to the ground. By-and-by
her eyes, strained with such watching, began to actually
deceive her. She saw, as she thought, shadows,
approach and enter the house. Several times she
ran to the door and opened it, and no one was there.