Several of his friends called, and he noticed them
all distinctly. He addressed two of his fellow-students
in the University in an affectionate appeal to what
he supposed their spiritual condition. In a conversation
with Rev. Mr. C., he said that if God had been pleased
to spare his life, he should have felt himself consecrated
to the ministry and missionary service; and expressed
the calm assurance of his faith. Prayer was offered
that he might spend one more precious Sabbath on earth.
The night passed, and the Sabbath came. My child
exclaimed, soon after waking, ’Precious Sabbath,’
and his eyes beamed with hallowed feeling. I said,
’Dear son, can you truly say this morning that
you feel the peace of God which passeth understanding?’
He raised his eyes and replied, most impressively,
‘Oh, yes.’ He said with delight,
’Mother, O think that Joseph is now by the river
of the water of life.’ He said also to me,
‘Mother, you will not weep for me?’ I replied,
’If I do joy will mingle with my tears.’
He continued, ’I shall be nearer to you in Heaven
than in India’ (alluding to his purpose, if
his life should be spared, to be a missionary in India).
I asked him what message I should send to his Uncle
Scudder. He said, ’Tell him I think my heart
was in the right place when his letter reached me,
or I know not what I should have done.’
Two friends came in. De Witt said, ’I thought
I should have spent part of this day around the throne
in heaven.’ And one (a pious young college
companion) said to the other, ‘If this be dying,
I envy him.’ After service in the afternoon,
Rev. Mr. Carpenter came in with two of his elders,
and three other Christian friends were present.
Singing was proposed; De Witt was delighted with the
thought of it, and selected the hymns. ‘Come,
thou fount of every blessing,’ was sung first.
My child could not join with his voice, but stretched
out his arm, and with his arm, having the forefinger
extended, beat the time. It was a touching, solemn
scene; the singing filled the room, and seemed to go
up to Heaven. After we had ended the second hymn,
’Rise, my soul, and stretch thy wings,’
he exclaimed, ‘I thought I was almost in heaven.’
On Sabbath night, about ten o’clock, he inquired
of a friend, ’whether she did not think he would
soon die?’ I went to him and asked him if he
felt any change that induced him to ask the question.
He replied, ’Everything seems to fail.’
I then talked to him about the Savior being with him
when he passed through the dark valley, and added,
’Dear son, I will give you up to the Lord.’
Directly he said, ’I am now ready any moment
to say, Lord Jesus, receive my spirit.’
He afterward repeated ’Lord Jesus, receive my
spirit. The Lord is my light and my salvation.
Of whom shall I be afraid? It is better to die
than live.’ A little before six o’clock
he looked intensely upon me. I asked what he wished
to give me?—his farewell kiss, which he
repeated several times. He then again gave me