unburdened by great doubts and deep glooms he must
not shiver when his wife tinkles her champagne glass
against another. He must learn to appreciate the
sinuous beauties of the cabaret dancer, and must train
himself to take no offence when he sees shimmering
wines tilted down white throats. He must train
himself to many things, just as he trains himself to
classical music and grand opera. To do these things
he must forget, as much as he can, the sweet melodies
and the sweeter women who are sinking into oblivion
together. He must accept life as a Grand Piano
tuned by a new sort of Tuning Master, and unless he
can dance to its music he is a misfit. That is
what my friend said to extenuate
her. She
fitted into this kind of life splendidly. He
was in the other groove. She loved light, laughter,
wine, song, and excitement. He, the misfit, loved
his books, his work, and his home. His greatest
joy would have been to go with her, hand in hand,
through some wonderful cathedral, pointing out its
ancient glories and mysteries to her. He wanted
aloneness—just they two. Such was
his idea of love. And she—wanted other
things. You understand, Father?... The thing
grew, and at last he saw that she was getting away
from him. Her passion for admiration and excitement
became a madness. I know, because I saw it.
My friend said that it was madness, even as he was
going mad. And yet he did not suspect her.
If another had told him that she was unclean I am
sure he would have killed him. Slowly he came
to experience the agony of knowing that the woman whom
he worshipped did not love him. But this did
not lead him to believe that she could love another—or
others. Then, one day, he left the city.
She went with him to the train—his wife.
She saw him go. She waved her handkerchief at
him. And as she stood there she was—glorious.”
Through partly closed eyes the Little Missioner saw
his shoulders tighten, and a hardness settle about
his mouth. The voice, too, was changed when it
went on. It was almost emotionless.
“It’s sometimes curious how the Chief
Arbiter of things plays His tricks on men—and
women, isn’t it, Father? There was trouble
on the line ahead, and my friend came back. It
was unexpected. It was late when he reached home,
and with his night key he went in quietly, because
he did not want to awaken her. It was
very still in the house—until he came to
the door of her room. There was a light.
He heard voices—very low. He listened.
He went in.”
There was a terrible silence. The ticking of
Father Roland’s big silver watch seemed like
the beating of a tiny drum.
“And what happened then, David?”