in the whole domain of literature, and you will find
some of the passages marked to arrest your attention.
In this age of rapid deviation from the standard rules
that governed feminine deportment and education when
I was a girl, many of the precepts and admonitions
penned by the authors I have mentioned are derided
and repudiated as ‘puritanical,’ ‘old-fashioned,’
‘strait-laced,’ ‘stupid and prudish’;
but if these indeed be faults, certainly in the light
of modern innovations they appear ‘to lean to
virtue’s side.’ In fashionable society,
such as you are destined to meet at Mr. Palma’s,
you will find many things that no doubt will impress
you as strange, possibly wrong; but in all these matters
consult the books I have selected for you, read your
Bible, pray regularly, and under all circumstances
hold fast to your principles. Question and listen
to your conscience, and no matter how keen the ridicule,
or severe the condemnation to which your views may
subject you, stand firm. Moral cowardice is the
inclined plane that leads to the first step in sin.
Be sure you are right, and then suffer no persuasion
or invective to influence you in questions involving
conscientious scruples. You are young and peculiarly
isolated, therefore I have given you a letter to my
valued old friend Mrs. Mason, who will always advise
you judiciously, if you will only consult her.
I hope you will devote as much time as possible to
music, for to one gifted with your rare talent it will
serve as a sieve straining out every ignoble discordant
suggestion, and will help to keep your thoughts pure
and holy.”
“I suppose there are wicked ways and wicked
people everywhere, and it is not the fashion or the
sinfulness that I am afraid of in New York, but the
loneliness I anticipate. I dread being shut up
between brick walls: no flowers, no grass, no
cows, no birds, no chickens, none of the things I
care for most.”
“But, my dear child, you forget that you have
entered your fifteenth year, and as you grow older
you will gradually lose your inordinate fondness for
pets. Your childish tastes will change as you
approach womanhood.”
“I hope not. Why should they? When
I am an old woman with white hair, spectacles, wrinkled
cheeks, and a ruffled muslin cap like poor Hannah’s,
I expect to love pigeons and rabbits, and all pretty
white things, just as dearly as I do now. Speaking
of Hannah, how I shall miss her? Since she went
away, I shun the kitchen as much as possible,—everything
is so changed, so sad. Oh! the dear, dear old-dead-and-gone-days
will never, never come back to me.”
For some time neither spoke. Mrs. Lindsay wept,
the girl only groaned in spirit; and at length she
said suddenly, like one nerved for some painful task: