He got up and stood before her, leaning one hand on
the chimney-piece. “I know I have seen
you very little to say this,” he said, “so
little that it may make what I say seem disrespectful.
That is my misfortune! I could have said it the
first time I saw you. Really, I had seen you before;
I had seen you in imagination; you seemed almost an
old friend. So what I say is not mere gallantry
and compliments and nonsense—I can’t
talk that way, I don’t know how, and I wouldn’t,
to you, if I could. It’s as serious as
such words can be. I feel as if I knew you and
knew what a beautiful, admirable woman you are.
I shall know better, perhaps, some day, but I have
a general notion now. You are just the woman I
have been looking for, except that you are far more
perfect. I won’t make any protestations
and vows, but you can trust me. It is very soon,
I know, to say all this; it is almost offensive.
But why not gain time if one can? And if you
want time to reflect—of course you do—the
sooner you begin, the better for me. I don’t
know what you think of me; but there is no great mystery
about me; you see what I am. Your brother told
me that my antecedents and occupations were against
me; that your family stands, somehow, on a higher
level than I do. That is an idea which of course
I don’t understand and don’t accept.
But you don’t care anything about that.
I can assure you that I am a very solid fellow, and
that if I give my mind to it I can arrange things
so that in a very few years I shall not need to waste
time in explaining who I am and what I am. You
will decide for yourself whether you like me or not.
What there is you see before you. I honestly
believe I have no hidden vices or nasty tricks.
I am kind, kind, kind! Everything that a man can
give a woman I will give you. I have a large
fortune, a very large fortune; some day, if you will
allow me, I will go into details. If you want
brilliancy, everything in the way of brilliancy that
money can give you, you shall have. And as regards
anything you may give up, don’t take for granted
too much that its place cannot be filled. Leave
that to me; I’ll take care of you; I shall know
what you need. Energy and ingenuity can arrange
everything. I’m a strong man! There,
I have said what I had on my heart! It was better
to get it off. I am very sorry if it’s
disagreeable to you; but think how much better it is
that things should be clear. Don’t answer
me now, if you don’t wish it. Think about
it, think about it as slowly as you please. Of
course I haven’t said, I can’t say, half
I mean, especially about my admiration for you.
But take a favorable view of me; it will only be just.”