rummaged it over. He had seen and done a great
deal, enjoyed and observed a great deal; he felt older,
and yet he felt younger too. He remembered Mr.
Babcock and his desire to form conclusions, and he
remembered also that he had profited very little by
his friend’s exhortation to cultivate the same
respectable habit. Could he not scrape together
a few conclusions? Baden-Baden was the prettiest
place he had seen yet, and orchestral music in the
evening, under the stars, was decidedly a great institution.
This was one of his conclusions! But he went
on to reflect that he had done very wisely to pull
up stakes and come abroad; this seeing of the world
was a very interesting thing. He had learned
a great deal; he couldn’t say just what, but
he had it there under his hat-band. He had done
what he wanted; he had seen the great things, and
he had given his mind a chance to “improve,”
if it would. He cheerfully believed that it had
improved. Yes, this seeing of the world was very
pleasant, and he would willingly do a little more
of it. Thirty-six years old as he was, he had
a handsome stretch of life before him yet, and he
need not begin to count his weeks. Where should
he take the world next? I have said he remembered
the eyes of the lady whom he had found standing in
Mrs. Tristram’s drawing-room; four months had
elapsed, and he had not forgotten them yet. He
had looked—he had made a point of looking—into
a great many other eyes in the interval, but the only
ones he thought of now were Madame de Cintre’s.
If he wanted to see more of the world, should he find
it in Madame de Cintre’s eyes? He would
certainly find something there, call it this world
or the next. Throughout these rather formless
meditations he sometimes thought of his past life and
the long array of years (they had begun so early)
during which he had had nothing in his head but “enterprise.”
They seemed far away now, for his present attitude
was more than a holiday, it was almost a rupture.
He had told Tristram that the pendulum was swinging
back and it appeared that the backward swing had not
yet ended. Still “enterprise,” which
was over in the other quarter wore to his mind a different
aspect at different hours. In its train a thousand
forgotten episodes came trooping back into his memory.
Some of them he looked complacently enough in the face;
from some he averted his head. They were old efforts,
old exploits, antiquated examples of “smartness”
and sharpness. Some of them, as he looked at
them, he felt decidedly proud of; he admired himself
as if he had been looking at another man. And,
in fact, many of the qualities that make a great deed
were there: the decision, the resolution, the
courage, the celerity, the clear eye, and the strong
hand. Of certain other achievements it would
be going too far to say that he was ashamed of them
for Newman had never had a stomach for dirty work.
He was blessed with a natural impulse to disfigure
with a direct, unreasoning blow the comely visage