His body spoke in answer, and he laid the blame for the answer entirely on himself.  He condemned himself at that moment, was angry with himself, cursed himself.  And he cursed himself, not because he was morbid, but because he was healthy-minded, and believed that his evil inclinations had been aroused by his knowledge of Mrs. Chepstow’s past.  And that fact was a beast, was something to be stamped on.  He would never allow himself comfortably to be that sort of man.  Yet he was, it seemed, enough that sort of man to make friendship with Mrs. Chepstow difficult, perhaps impossible.  If love had led him to such an inclination, he would, being no prude, have understood it as a perfectly natural and perfectly healthy thing.  But he did not love Mrs. Chepstow.  He would never love, really love, again.  For years he had said that to himself, and had believed it.  He said it again now.  And even if he could renew that strange power, to love, he could not love a woman who was not pure.  He felt certain of that.  He thought of the dead girl and of Mrs. Chepstow.  But to-night he could not recall the dead girl’s figure, face, look, exactly.  Mrs. Chepstow’s he could, of course, recall.  He had seen her that very day.  And the girl he had loved had been dead for many years.  She lived in his memory now rather as a symbol of purity and beauty than as a human being.

Mrs. Chepstow, of course, would never find a man sincerely to love her now.

And yet why not!  Suddenly Nigel checked himself, as he generally did when he found himself swiftly subscribing to the general opinion of the great mass of men.  Why not?  The shoulder to the wheel; it was nearly always the shoulder of love—­love of an idea, love of a woman, love of humanity, love of work, love of God.  All the men he knew, or very nearly all, would laugh at the idea of Mrs. Chepstow being sincerely loved.  But the fact that they would laugh could have no effect on a manly heart or a manly spirit.

He felt almost angry with her for the loneliness and the immobility which pained his chivalry and struck at his sense of pity.  If he could think of her as going away, too, as wandering, in Switzerland, in Italy, in some lovely place, he would feel all right.  But always he saw her seated in that room, alone, deserted, playing the piano, reading, with no prospect of company, of change.  Mrs. Chepstow had acted her part well.  She had stamped a lonely image upon the retina of Nigel’s imagination.

He was still walking about his room in bare feet.  But his cigar had gone out, though it was still between his lips.  The hour was very late.  He heard a distant clock strike two.  And just after he had listened to its chime, followed by other chimes in near and distant places of the city, the night idea of a strong and young man came to him.

If he could not be friends with Mrs. Chepstow, could he be—­the other thing to her!