What dread I feel
when I revolve the day
I left my mistress, sad, without
repose,
My heart too with her:
and my fond thought knows
Nought on which gladlier,
oft’ner it can stay.
Again my fancy doth her form
portray
Meek among beauty’s
train, like to some rose
Midst meaner flowers; nor
joy nor grief she shows;
Not with misfortune prest
but with dismay.
Then were thrown by her custom’d
cheerfulness,
Her pearls, her chaplets,
and her gay attire,
Her song, her laughter, and
her mild address;
Thus doubtingly I quitted
her I love:
Now dark ideas, dreams, and
bodings dire
Raise terrors, which Heaven
grant may groundless prove!
NOTT.
SONNET CCXII.
Solea lontana in sonno consolarme.
SHE ANNOUNCES TO HIM, IN A VISION, THAT HE WILL NEVER SEE HER MORE.
To soothe me distant
far, in days gone by,
With dreams of one whose glance
all heaven combined,
Was mine; now fears and sorrow
haunt my mind,
Nor can I from that grief,
those terrors fly:
For oft in sleep I mark within
her eye
Deep pity with o’erwhelming
sadness join’d;
And oft I seem to hear on
every wind
Accents, which from my breast
chase peace and joy.
“That last dark eve,”
she cries, “remember’st thou,
When to those doting eyes
I bade farewell,
Forced by the time’s
relentless tyranny?
I had not then the power,
nor heart to tell,
What thou shalt find, alas!
too surely true—
Hope not again on earth thy
Laura’s face to see.”
WRANGHAM.
SONNET CCXIII.
O misera ed orribil visione.
HE CANNOT BELIEVE IN HER DEATH, BUT IF TRUE, HE PRAYS GOD TO TAKE HIM ALSO FROM LIFE.
O misery! horror!
can it, then, be true,
That the sweet light before
its time is spent,
’Mid all its pains which
could my life content,
And ever with fresh hopes
of good renew?
If so, why sounds not other
channels through,
Nor only from herself, the
great event?
No! God and Nature could
not thus consent,
And my dark fears are groundless
and undue.
Still it delights my heart
to hope once more
The welcome sight of that
enchanting face,
The glory of our age, and
life to me.
But if, to her eternal home
to soar,
That heavenly spirit have
left her earthly place,
Oh! then not distant may my
last day be!
MACGREGOR.
SONNET CCXIV.
In dubbio di mio stato, or piango, or canto.
TO HIS LONGING TO SEE HER AGAIN IS NOW ADDED THE FEAR OF SEEING HER NO MORE.