Yet do I know full well
How much my praise must wrongful
prove to you,
But how the great desire can
I oppose,
Which ever in me grows,
Since what surpasses thought
’twas mine to view,
Though that nor others’
wit nor mine can tell?
Eyes! guilty authors of my
cherish’d pain,
That you alone can judge me,
well I know,
When from your burning beams
I melt like snow,
Haply your sweet disdain
Offence in my unworthiness
may see;
Ah! were there not such fear,
To calm the heat with which
I kindle near,
’Twere bliss to die:
for better far to me
Were death with them than
life without could be.
If yet not wasted quite—
So frail a thing before so
fierce a flame—
’Tis not from my own
strength that safety came,
But that some fear gives might,
Freezing the warm blood coursing
through its veins,
To my poor heart better to
bear the strife.
O valleys, hills, O forests,
floods, and plains,
Witnesses of my melancholy
life!
For death how often have ye
heard me pray!
Ah, miserable fate!
Where flight avails not, though
’tis death to stay;
But, if a dread more great
Restrain’d me not, despair
would find a way,
Speedy and short, my lingering
pains to close,
—Hers then the
crime who still no mercy shows.
Why thus astray, O grief,
Lead me to speak what I would
leave unsaid?
Leave me, where pleasure me
impels, to tread:
Not now my song complains
Of you, sweet eyes, serene
beyond belief,
Nor yet of him who binds me
in such chains:
Right well may you observe
the varying hues
Which o’er my visage
oft the tyrant strews,
And thence may guess what
war within he makes,
Where night and day he reigns,
Strong in the power which
from your light he takes:
Blessed ye were as bright,
Save that from you is barr’d
your own dear sight:
Yet often as to me those orbs
you turn,
What they to others are you
well may learn.
If, as to us who gaze
Were known to you the charms
incredible
And heavenly, of which I sing
the praise,
No measured joy would swell
Your heart, and haply, therefore,
’tis denied
Unto the power which doth
their motions guide.
Happy the soul for you which
breathes the sigh,
Best lights of heaven! for
whom I grateful bless
This life, which has for me
no other joy.
Alas! so seldom why
Give me what I can ne’er
too much possess?
Why not more often see
The ceaseless havoc which
love makes of me?
And why that bliss so quickly
from me steal,
From time to time which my
rapt senses feel?