Long years and many had pass’d
o’er my head,
Since, in Love’s first
assault, was dealt my wound,
And from my brow its youthful
air had fled,
While cold and cautious thoughts
my heart around
Had made it almost adamantine
ground,
To loosen which hard passion
gave no rest:
No sorrow yet with tears had
bathed my breast,
Nor broke my sleep: and
what was not in mine
A miracle to me in others
seem’d.
Life’s sure test death
is deem’d,
As cloudless eve best proves
the past day fine;
Ah me! the tyrant whom I sing,
descried
Ere long his error, that,
till then, his dart
Not yet beneath the gown had
pierced my heart,
And brought a puissant lady
as his guide,
’Gainst whom of small
or no avail has been
Genius, or force, to strive
or supplicate.
These two transform’d
me to my present state,
Making of breathing man a
laurel green,
Which loses not its leaves
though wintry blasts be keen.
What my amaze, when first
I fully learn’d
The wondrous change upon my
person done,
And saw my thin hairs to those
green leaves turn’d
(Whence yet for them a crown
I might have won);
My feet wherewith I stood,
and moved, and run—
Thus to the soul the subject
members bow—
Become two roots upon the
shore, not now
Of fabled Peneus, but a stream
as proud,
And stiffen’d to a branch
my either arm!
Nor less was my alarm,
When next my frame white down
was seen to shroud,
While, ’neath the deadly
leven, shatter’d lay
My first green hope that soar’d,
too proud, in air,
Because, in sooth, I knew
not when nor where
I left my latter state; but,
night and day,
Where it was struck, alone,
in tears, I went,
Still seeking it alwhere,
and in the wave;
And, for its fatal fall, while
able, gave
My tongue no respite from
its one lament,
For the sad snowy swan both
form and language lent.
Thus that loved wave—my
mortal speech put by
For birdlike song—I
track’d with constant feet,
Still asking mercy with a
stranger cry;
But ne’er in tones so
tender, nor so sweet,
Knew I my amorous sorrow to
repeat,
As might her hard and cruel
bosom melt:
Judge, still if memory sting,
what then I felt!
But ah! not now the past,
it rather needs
Of her my lovely and inveterate
foe
The present power to show,
Though such she be all language
as exceeds.
She with a glance who rules
us as her own,
Opening my breast my heart
in hand to take,
Thus said to me: “Of
this no mention make.”
I saw her then, in alter’d
air, alone,
So that I recognised her not—O
shame
Be on my truant mind and faithless
sight!
And when the truth I told
her in sore fright,
She soon resumed her old accustom’d
frame,
While, desperate and half
dead, a hard rock mine became.