devoted the remainder to various public institutions
and local charities. Rowland’s third was
an easy competence, and he never felt a moment’s
jealousy of his fellow-pensioners; but when one of
the establishments which had figured most advantageously
in his father’s will bethought itself to affirm
the existence of a later instrument, in which it had
been still more handsomely treated, the young man felt
a sudden passionate need to repel the claim by process
of law. There was a lively tussle, but he gained
his case; immediately after which he made, in another
quarter, a donation of the contested sum. He cared
nothing for the money, but he had felt an angry desire
to protest against a destiny which seemed determined
to be exclusively salutary. It seemed to him
that he would bear a little spoiling. And yet
he treated himself to a very modest quantity, and
submitted without reserve to the great national discipline
which began in 1861. When the Civil War broke
out he immediately obtained a commission, and did
his duty for three long years as a citizen soldier.
His duty was obscure, but he never lost a certain
private satisfaction in remembering that on two or
three occasions it had been performed with something
of an ideal precision. He had disentangled himself
from business, and after the war he felt a profound
disinclination to tie the knot again. He had no
desire to make money, he had money enough; and although
he knew, and was frequently reminded, that a young
man is the better for a fixed occupation, he could
discover no moral advantage in driving a lucrative
trade. Yet few young men of means and leisure
ever made less of a parade of idleness, and indeed
idleness in any degree could hardly be laid at the
door of a young man who took life in the serious,
attentive, reasoning fashion of our friend. It
often seemed to Mallet that he wholly lacked the prime
requisite of a graceful flaneur—the simple,
sensuous, confident relish of pleasure. He had
frequent fits of extreme melancholy, in which he declared
that he was neither fish nor flesh nor good red herring.
He was neither an irresponsibly contemplative nature
nor a sturdily practical one, and he was forever looking
in vain for the uses of the things that please and
the charm of the things that sustain. He was an
awkward mixture of strong moral impulse and restless
aesthetic curiosity, and yet he would have made a
most ineffective reformer and a very indifferent artist.
It seemed to him that the glow of happiness must be
found either in action, of some immensely solid kind,
on behalf of an idea, or in producing a masterpiece
in one of the arts. Oftenest, perhaps, he wished
he were a vigorous young man of genius, without a
penny. As it was, he could only buy pictures,
and not paint them; and in the way of action, he had
to content himself with making a rule to render scrupulous
moral justice to handsome examples of it in others.
On the whole, he had an incorruptible modesty.
With his blooming complexion and his serene gray eye,
he felt the friction of existence more than was suspected;
but he asked no allowance on grounds of temper, he
assumed that fate had treated him inordinately well
and that he had no excuse for taking an ill-natured
view of life, and he undertook constantly to believe
that all women were fair, all men were brave, and the
world was a delightful place of sojourn, until the
contrary had been distinctly proved.