Then he remembered his dead wife, as he had never remembered her before, with an anguish of loss.  He said to himself that if he only had her back, even with her faded face and her ready tongue, that old, settled estate would be better for him than this joy, which at once dazzled and racked him.  Suddenly the man, as he stood there, put his hands before his face; he was weeping like a child.  That which Maria had done, instead of awakening wrath, had aroused a pity for himself and for her, which seemed too great to be borne.  For the instant, the dead triumphed over the living.

Then Harry took up the lamp and went to his own room.  He set the lamp on the dresser, and looked at his face, with the rays thrown upward upon it, very much as Maria had done the night of her mother’s death.  When he viewed himself in the looking-glass, he smiled involuntarily; the appearance of youth returned.  He curled his mustache and moved his head this way and that.  He thought about some new clothes which he was to have.  He owned to himself, with perfect ingenuousness, that he was, in his way, as a man, as good-looking as Ida herself.  Suddenly he remembered how Abby had looked when she was a young girl and he had married her; he had not compared himself so favorably with her.  The image of his dead wife, as a young girl, was much fairer in his mind than that of Ida Slome.

“There’s no use talking, Abby was handsomer than Ida when she was young,” he said to himself, as he began to undress.  He went to sleep thinking of Abby as a young girl, but when once asleep he dreamed of Ida Slome.

Chapter IX

Harry and Ida Slome were to be married the Monday before Thanksgiving.  The school would close on the Friday before.

Ida Slome possessed, along with an entire self-satisfaction, a vein of pitiless sense, which enabled her to see herself as others might see her, and which saved her from the follies often incident to the self-satisfied.  She considered herself a beauty; she thought, and with reason, that she would be well worth looking at in her wedding-clothes, but she also told herself that it was quite possible that some remarks might be made to her disparagement if she had the wedding to which her inclination prompted her.  She longed for a white gown, veil, bridesmaids, and the rest, but she knew better.  She knew that more could be made of her beauty and her triumph if she curtailed her wish.  She realized that Harry’s wife had been dead only a little more than a year, and that, although still a beauty, she was not a young girl, and she steered clear of criticism and ridicule.

The ceremony was performed in the Presbyterian church Monday afternoon.  Ida wore a prune-colored costume, and a hat trimmed with pansies.  She was quite right in thinking that she was adorable in it, and there was also in the color, with its shade of purple, a delicate intimation of the remembrance of mourning in the midst of joy.  The church was filled with people, but there were no bridesmaids.  Some of Ida’s scholars acted as ushers.  Wollaston Lee was among them.  To Maria’s utter astonishment, he did not seem to realize his trying position as a rejected suitor.  He was attired in a new suit, and wore a white rosebud in his coat, and Maria glanced at him with mingled admiration and disdain.