She was not yet an angel, only a poor, human girl
with the longings of her kind, which would not be
entirely stifled as long as her human heart beat.
But she did what she had planned. Maria had an
unusually high forehead. It might have given
evidence of intellect, of goodness, but it was not
beautiful. She had always fluffed her blond hair
over it, concealing it with pretty waves. This
morning she brushed all her hair as tightly back as
possible, and made a hard twist at an ugly angle at
the back of her head. By doing this she did not
actually destroy her beauty, for her regular features
and delicate tints remained, but nobody looking at
her would have called her even pretty. Her delicate
features became pronounced and hardened, her nose
seemed sharpened and elongated, her lips thinner.
This display of her forehead hardened and made bold
all her face and made her look years older than she
was. Maria looked at herself in the glass with
a sort of horror. She had always been fond of
herself in the glass. She had loved that double
of herself which had come and gone at her bidding,
but now it was different. She was actually afraid
of the stern, thin visage which confronted her, which
was herself, yet not herself. When she was fully
dressed it was worse still. She put on a gray
gown which had never been becoming. It was not
properly fitted. It was short-waisted, and gave
her figure a short, chunky appearance. This chunky
aspect, with her sharp face and strained back hair,
made her seem fairly hideous to herself. But
she remained firm. Her firmness, in reality,
was one cause of the tightening and thinning of her
lips. She hesitated when about to go down-stairs.
She had not heard Evelyn go down. She wondered
whether she had better wait until she went, or go
into her room. She finally decided upon the latter
course. Evelyn was standing in front of her dresser
brushing her hair. When Maria entered she threw
with a quick motion the whole curly, fluffy mass over
her face, which glowed through it with an intensity
of shame. Evelyn, when she awoke that morning,
felt as if she had revealed some nakedness of her
very soul. The girl was fairly ill. She
could not believe that she had said what she remembered
herself to have said.
“Good-morning, dear,” said Maria.
Evelyn did not notice her changed appearance at all.
She continued to brush away at the mist of hair over
her face. “Oh, sister!” she murmured.
“Never mind, precious, we won’t say anything
more about it,” said Maria, and her voice had
maternal inflections.
“I ought not,” stammered Evelyn, but Maria
interrupted her.
“I have forgotten all about it, dear,”
she said. “Now you had better hurry or
you will be late.”
“When I woke up this morning and remembered,
I felt as if I should die,” Evelyn said, in
a choked voice.
“Nonsense,” said Maria. “You
won’t die, and it will all come out right.
Don’t worry anything about it or think anything
more about it. Why don’t you wear your
red dress to school to-day? It is pleasant.”