friendly and obliging in itself, could not but wound
me in the then state of my mind. I never repeated
my first call on Liszt, and, without knowing or even
wishing to know him, I was prone to look on him as
strange and adverse to my nature. My repeated
expression of this feeling was afterward told to him,
just at the time when my “Rienzi” at Dresden
was attracting general attention. He was surprised
to find himself misunderstood with such violence by
a man whom he had scarcely known, and whose acquaintance
now seemed not without value to him. I am still
moved when I think of the repeated and eager attempts
he made to change my opinion of him, even before he
knew any of my works. He acted not from any artistic
sympathy, but led by the purely human wish of discontinuing
a casual disharmony between himself and another being;
perhaps he also felt an infinitely tender misgiving
of having really hurt me unconsciously. He who
knows the selfishness and terrible insensibility of
our social life, and especially of the relations of
modern artists to each other, can not be struck with
wonder, nay, delight, with the treatment I received
from this remarkable man.... At Weimar I saw
him for the last time, when I was resting for a few
days in Thuringia, uncertain whether the threatening
persecution would compel me to continue my flight
from Germany. The very day when my personal danger
became a certainty, I saw Liszt conducting a rehearsal
of my ‘Tannhouser,’ and was astonished
at recognizing my second self in his achievement.
What I had felt in inventing this music, he felt in
performing it; what I had wanted to express in writing
it down, he expressed in making it sound. Strange
to say, through the love of this rarest friend, I
gained, at the very moment of becoming homeless, a
real home for my art which I had hitherto longed for
and sought for in the wrong place.... At the
end of my last stay in Paris, when, ill, miserable,
and despairing, I sat brooding over my fate, my eye
fell on the score of my ‘Lohengrin,’ which
I had totally forgotten. Suddenly I felt something
like compassion that this music should never sound
from off the death-pale paper. Two words I wrote
to Liszt; the answer was that preparation was being
made for the performance on the grandest scale which
the limited means of Weimar permitted. Everything
that man or circumstances could do was done to make
the work understood.... Errors and misconceptions
impeded the desired success. What was to be done
to supply what was wanted, so as to further the true
understanding on all sides and, with it, the ultimate
success of the work? Liszt saw it at once, and
did it. He gave to the public his own impression
of the work in a manner the convincing eloquence and
overpowering efficacy of which remain unequaled.
Success was his reward, and with this success he now
approaches me, saying, ’Behold, we have come
so far! Now create us a new work, that we may
go still farther.’”