She mopped her eyes obediently; she felt frightened.
The horrible feeling that Jimmy was a stranger came back to her afresh. Oh, was this the kind boy lover who had been so good to her that day her mother died—the kind lover who had taken her in his arms and told her that she had him, that he would never leave her?
She longed so for just one word—one sign of affection; but Jimmy only sat there, hot and uncomfortable and silent.
After a moment:
“Better?” he asked.
“Yes . . .” She tried to control herself; she stammered a little shamed apology. “I’m so sorry—Jimmy.”
He patted her hand.
“That’s all right.”
She took courage; she looked into his face.
“And you do—oh, you do love me?” she whispered.
“Of course I do.” He put an awkward arm round her; he pressed her head to his shoulder, so that she could not see his face. “Of course I do,” he said again. “Don’t you worry—we’re going to be awfully happy.” He kissed her cheek.
Christine turned and put her arms round his neck; she was only a child still—she saw no reason at all why she should not let Jimmy know how very much she loved him.
“Oh, I do love you—I do,” she said softly.
Jimmy coloured hotly; he felt an uncontrollable longing to kick himself; he kissed her again with furtive haste.
“That’s all right, dear,” he said.
They had arranged to stay a week in London.
Christine liked London. “And we couldn’t very well do anything very much, could we?” So she had appealed to him wistfully. “When mother——” She had not been able to go on.
Jimmy had agreed hastily to anything; he had chosen a very quiet and select hotel, and taken a suite of rooms. He did not know how on earth they were going to be paid for; he was counting on an extra cheque from the Great Horatio as a wedding present. He was relieved when the taxi stopped at the hotel; he got out with a sigh; he turned to give his hand to Christine; his heart smote him as he looked at her.
Sangster was right when he had called her “such a child.” She looked very young as she stood there in the afternoon sunshine, in her black frock, and with her white flowers clasped nervously in both hands. Jimmy felt conscious of a lump in his throat.
“Come along, dear,” he said very gently; he put his hand through her arm. They went into the hotel together.
Christine went upstairs with one of the maids. Jimmy said he would come up presently for tea; he went into the smoking-room and rang for a brandy and soda. For the first time in his life he was genuinely afraid of what he had done; he knew now that he cared nothing for Christine. It was a terrifying thought.
And she had nobody but him—the responsibility of her whole life lay on his shoulders; it made him hot to think of it.