brings you nearer to something dreadful. Time
is jealous of you, and wars against your lilies and
your roses. You will become sallow, and hollow-cheeked,
and dull-eyed. You will suffer horribly....
Ah! realize your youth while you have it. Don’t
squander the gold of your days, listening to the tedious,
trying to improve the hopeless failure, or giving
away your life to the ignorant, the common, and the
vulgar. These are the sickly aims, the false
ideals, of our age. Live! Live the wonderful
life that is in you! Let nothing be lost upon
you. Be always searching for new sensations.
Be afraid of nothing. . . . A new Hedonism—
that is what our century wants. You might be
its visible symbol. With your personality there
is nothing you could not do. The world belongs
to you for a season. . . . The moment I met
you I saw that you were quite unconscious of what you
really are, of what you really might be. There
was so much in you that charmed me that I felt I must
tell you something about yourself. I thought
how tragic it would be if you were wasted. For
there is such a little time that your youth will last—such
a little time. The common hill-flowers wither,
but they blossom again. The laburnum will be
as yellow next June as it is now. In a month
there will be purple stars on the clematis, and year
after year the green night of its leaves will hold
its purple stars. But we never get back our youth.
The pulse of joy that beats in us at twenty becomes
sluggish. Our limbs fail, our senses rot.
We degenerate into hideous puppets, haunted by the
memory of the passions of which we were too much afraid,
and the exquisite temptations that we had not the
courage to yield to. Youth! Youth!
There is absolutely nothing in the world but youth!”
Dorian Gray listened, open-eyed and wondering.
The spray of lilac fell from his hand upon the gravel.
A furry bee came and buzzed round it for a moment.
Then it began to scramble all over the oval stellated
globe of the tiny blossoms. He watched it with
that strange interest in trivial things that we try
to develop when things of high import make us afraid,
or when we are stirred by some new emotion for which
we cannot find expression, or when some thought that
terrifies us lays sudden siege to the brain and calls
on us to yield. After a time the bee flew away.
He saw it creeping into the stained trumpet of a
Tyrian convolvulus. The flower seemed to quiver,
and then swayed gently to and fro.
Suddenly the painter appeared at the door of the studio
and made staccato signs for them to come in.
They turned to each other and smiled.
“I am waiting,” he cried. “Do
come in. The light is quite perfect, and you
can bring your drinks.”
They rose up and sauntered down the walk together.
Two green-and-white butterflies fluttered past them,
and in the pear-tree at the corner of the garden a
thrush began to sing.
“You are glad you have met me, Mr. Gray,”
said Lord Henry, looking at him.