“Nearly fifty years old!” she repeated. “But what is that? You have—health, you are strong and well, there is nothing a younger man can do that you cannot. Why do you worry about your age?”
“Perhaps,” he admitted, with a faint smile, and an innate compulsion to tell her of the thought which had lurked behind, “because you are so marvelously young.”
“Absurd!” she scoffed. “I am twenty-nine years old—practically thirty. That is to say, with the usual twenty years’ allowance, you and I are of the same age.”
He looked across at her, across the lace-draped table with its bowls of fruit, its richly-cut decanter of wine, its low bowl of roses, its haze of cigarette smoke. She was leaning back in her chair, her head resting upon the fingers of one hand. Her face seemed alive with so many emotions. She was so anxious to console, so interested in her companion, herself, and the moment. He felt something unexpected and irresistible.
“I would to God I could look at it like that!” he exclaimed suddenly.
The words had left his lips before he was conscious that the thought which had lain at the back of them had found expression in his tone and glance. Just at first they produced no other effect in her save that evidenced by the gently upraised eyebrows, the sweetly tolerant smile. And then a sudden cloud, scarcely of discomfiture, certainly not of displeasure, more of unrest, swept across her face. Her eyes no longer met his so clearly and frankly. There was a little mist there and a silence. She was looking away through the windows to the dim, pearly line of blue, the actual horizon of things present. Her pulses were scarcely steady. She was possessed to a full extent of the her qualities of courage, physical and spiritual, yet at that moment she felt a wave of curious fear, the fear of the idealist that she may not be true to herself.
The moment passed and she looked at him with a smile. An innate gift of concealment, the heritage of her sex, came to her rescue, but she felt, somehow or other, as though she had passed through one of the crises of her life—that she could never be quite the same again. She had ceased for those few seconds to be natural.
“What does that wish mean?” she asked. “Do you mean that you would like to agree with me, or would you like to be twenty-nine?”