Letters of a Soldier eBook

This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 132 pages of information about Letters of a Soldier.

Letters of a Soldier eBook

This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 132 pages of information about Letters of a Soldier.
spared?  Yet I had something worth doing to do in the world!’ Most touching is that sigh, even more touching than the signs of greatness in his soul, for it suddenly breathes an anguish long controlled.  It is a human weakness—­our own weakness—­that is at last confessed, on the eve of a Passion, as in the Divine example.  At rare times such a question, in the constant sight of death, in fatigue and weariness, in the long distress of rain and mud, checks in him the impulse of life and of spiritual desire.  He was himself the young plant of which he writes, growing, creating fragrance and breaking into flower, sure of God, feeling Him alive within itself.  But all at once it knows frost is coming and the threat of unpitying things.  What if the universe were void, what if in the infinity of the exterior world there were nothing, across the splendid vision, but an insensate fatality?  What if sacrifice itself were also a delusion?  ’Dark days have come upon me, and nothingness seems the end of all, whereas all that is in my being had assured me of the plenitude of the universe.’  And he asks himself the anxious question, ’Is it even sure that moral effort bears any fruit?’ It is something like abandonment by God.  But that darkening of his lights passes quickly away.  He comes again to the regions of tranquil thought, and leaves them thenceforward only for the work in hand.  ‘I hope,’ he writes, ’that when you think of me you will have in mind all those who have left everything behind, and how their nearest and dearest think of them only in the past, and say of them, “We had once a brother, who, many years ago, withdrew from this world."’ How strange is the serenity of these lofty thoughts, how entirely detached from self and from all human things is this spirit of contemplation.  Two slight traits give us signs:  One night, on a battlefield ‘scattered with fragments of men’ and with burning dwellings, under a starry sky, he makes his bed in an excavation, and lies there watching the crescent moon, and waits for dawn; now and again a shell bursts, earth falls about him, and then silence returns to the frozen soil:  ’I have paid the price, but I have had moments of solitude full of God.’  Again, one evening, after five days of horror (’we have no officers left—­they all died as brave men’), he suddenly comes upon the body of a friend; ’a white body, splendid under the moon.  I lay down near him.’  In the quietness, by the side of the dead man, nothing remains but beauty and peace.

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These letters are to be anonymous, at least so long as any hope remains that he who was lost may return.  It is enough to know that they were written by a Frenchman who, in love and faith, bore his part in the general effort, the common peril, glad to renounce himself in the pain and the devotion of his countrymen.  By a happy fortune that he did not foresee when he left his clean solitude for the sweat, the servitude,

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