But from such thoughts about her dress, or her tea table, flowers, the lights in the room, her mind kept darting anxiously off.  All this was nothing!  What should she say?  “It’s a woman of brains who is coming to call.  Think of all she knows—­and she earns her living—­she has a profession of her own!  How in the world shall I talk to her?  She thinks me like Amy—­there’s Amy again!  Oh, Amy, Amy, I don’t want to hate you!  You helped me once, you were dear to me, and you had heaps and heaps of good points!  But please, please stop coming up in my life!

“Don’t get into another panic, my dear.  When she comes you must be natural.  Your natural self—­that always counts.  Don’t try to show off what you haven’t got.  Show her only what you have.  Make her feel you’re young and ready to learn—­half mad to learn!  No, that won’t do—­not mad, but keen for everything—­interested in her life—­in all she does and thinks and feels.”  She frowned.  “No, that’s too personal.  And you can’t be personal in New York—­not very—­they don’t like it here.  Every one’s too busy.  You must be interested in things—­the town in general—­music—­books—­people in a general way.

“‘Here’s the kind of a girl who will grow,’ she must say, ’and who is worth my taking up!’ But will she!  Now here’s that panic again!  And can’t you see, you little goose, this is just what may spoil everything?  If you’re scared, you’ll lose!  You’ve got to keep cool every minute she’s here!  Who is this Sally anyhow?  What has she done that you won’t do when you’re as old as she is? . . .  Yes, but don’t you strike that note!  No woman likes to be reminded that she is ten years older than any other woman on earth.  She’ll put me down as a cute young thing who has a dangerous way with men.  Dwight has praised me to her, of course—­but she’ll put his liking down to that—­the—­the—­the sex side!  I must show her it isn’t, that I’ve got more, that I don’t want men but women now!  But not too hard or eager, you know.  Oh, I must watch her all the time, to see if I’m getting any hold.  And then, the minute I see my chance, I must tell her my trouble—­no, my big chance—­all I was just on the point of doing with Joe, and could do now—­if only I had her for a friend!”

Such thinking was spasmodic and often disconnected.  Thoughts of Joe kept breaking in, and of what she should do if she failed with him.  And again, putting down with an effort all such thoughts and fancies, she took Susette and the baby and went out for a walk in the Park.  It was one of those balmy days that come in winter now and then, and Ethel sat down on a bench for a while.

But then she looked around with a start.  Who was that on a bench nearby?  A fat man with a black moustache, his derby hat tipped over his forehead, and his two small piggish eyes morosely and narrowly watching her.  A detective—­working for Fanny Carr!  Ethel angrily rose and called to Susette and wheeled the baby carriage away.  But just as she passed the fat man, a small fat boy ran up to him.