Julia would have remonstrated; but the Doctor said to her:  “Let her alone for the present, my dear; she has had a great shock.  Trust to nature.  This cannot last long with a girl like Katy.  It is half of it over-fatigue, carried on from her school-keeping to add to the present account.”  To me he said:  “Katy, you may sew, if you like, but not in-doors, I will carry your basket out for you into the arbor; and in the afternoon I am going to take you to ride in the woods.”

Our past selves are often a riddle that our present selves cannot read; but I suspect the real state of the case was, partly that, as the Doctor believed, I was for the time being exhausted in body and stunned in mind, and partly that, in those young, impetuous days, grief was such an all-convulsing passion with me, when I yielded to it, that to the utmost of my strength I resisted it at the outset, and seldom dared suffer myself to suffer at all.  But, as he also believed, “this could not last long”; and it did not.

One afternoon, as I sewed in the arbor, a sweet little girl, who had been in Fanny’s class in her Sunday school, stole into the garden and up to me, looked wistfully into my face as if seeking some likeness there, kissed my cheek timidly, laid a large nosegay of delicate flowers upon my knee, and crept away as gently as she came.  The flowers were all white; and I saw at once that they were meant for Fanny’s grave.  I might go there for the first time now, as well as at any other time.  The Doctor and his wife were out together, and no one was at home to question me.

Fanny had been laid, I need scarcely say, just where she wished.  My guardian had driven me there early one morning to point out the place; and we found the withered clovers in the grass.  It had rained often since.  The swollen turf was nearly healed.  I untied the flowers, and slowly, and with minute precision, arranged them in a cross above her breast.  At last, when there was no blossom more to add or alter, I sat down again in my solitude where I sat with her so lately, with the same leaves fluttering on the same trees, the same grass waving on the same graves, and her beneath instead of upon it.

At first I could not think,—­I could only cry.  For now at length I had to cry; and cry I did, in a tornado and deluge of grief that by degrees swept and washed away the accumulated vapors from my mind, and brought it to a clearer, healthier calm.  I believe God in His mercy has appointed that those who are capable of the strongest, shall not in general be capable of the longest anguish.  At least, I am sure that it is so, not only with myself, but with one better and dearer than myself; so that the experience of life has taught me to see in the sharpest of pangs the happiest augury of their brevity.

Thus it could not have been very long before I was able to raise my head, and wipe my eyes, and look once more upon my two dear graves.  The setting sun glowed over them.  They looked soft and bright.  From one of them the echo of an angel’s voice seemed still to say, “Here, by mamma, is where I like to lie”; from both in unison I heard, “It is good and brave to look things in the face and on all sides; but then among the sides, never forget the bright side, little Katy.”