And some peradventure know not well their own affection themselves.  But there lieth more imperfection secretly in their affection than they themselves are well aware of, which only God beholdeth.  And therefore saith the prophet unto God, “Mine imperfection have thine eyes beheld.”  And therefore the prophet prayeth, “From mine hidden sins cleanse thou me, good Lord.”

But now, cousin, this tribulation of the Turk:  If he so persecute us for the faith that those who will forsake their faith shall keep their goods, and those shall lose their goods who will not leave their faith—­lo, this manner of persecution shall try them like a touchstone.  For it shall show the feigned from the true-minded, and it shall also teach them who think they mean better than they do indeed, better to discern themselves.  For there are some who think they mean well, while they frame themselves a conscience, and ever keep still a great heap of superfluous substance by them, thinking ever still that they will bethink themselves upon some good deed on which they will well bestow it once—­or else that their executors shall!  But now, if they lie not unto themselves, but keep their goods for any good purpose to the pleasure of God indeed, then shall they, in this persecution, for the pleasure of God in keeping his faith, be glad to depart from them.

And therefore, as for all these things—­the loss, I mean, of all these outward things that men call the gifts of fortune—­this is, methinketh, in this Turk’s persecution for the faith, consolation great and sufficient:  Every man who hath them either setteth by them for the world or for God.  He who setteth by them for the world hath, as I have showed you, little profit by them to the body and great harm unto the soul.  And therefore, he might well, if he were wise, reckon that he won by the loss, although he lost them but by some common cause.  And much more happy can he then be, since he loseth them by such a meritorious means.  And on the other hand, he who keepeth them for some good purpose, intending to bestow them for the pleasure of God, the loss of them in this Turk’s persecution for keeping of the faith can be no manner of grief to him.  For by so parting from them he bestoweth them in such wise unto God’s pleasure that at the time when he loseth them by no way could he bestow them unto his high pleasure better.  For though it would have been peradventure better to have bestowed them well before, yet since he kept them for some good purpose he would not have left them unbestowed if he had foreknown the chance.  But being now prevented so by persecution that he cannot bestow them in that other good way that he would have, yet since he parteth from them because he will not part from the faith, though the devil’s escheator violently take them from him, yet willingly giveth he them to God.

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