“Bent o’er her babe, her eyes
dissolved in dew,
The big drops mingled with the milk he
drew
Gave the sad presage of his future years—
The child of misery, baptized in tears.”—John
Langhorne.
The days of Anna’s waiting lagged. She lost all count of time and season. Each day was painfully like its predecessor, a period of time to be gone through with, as best she could. She realized after her mother’s death what the gentle companionship had been to her, what a prop the frail mother had become in her hour of need. For a great change had come over the querulous invalid with the beginning of her daughter’s troubles, the grievances of the woman of the world were forgotten in the anxiety of the mother, and never by look or word did she chide her daughter, or make her affliction anything but easier to bear by her gentle presence.
Anna, sunk in the stupor of her own grief, did not realize the comfort of her mother’s presence until it was too late. She shrank from the strangers with whom they made their little home—a middle aged shopkeeper and his wife, who had been glad enough to rent them two unused rooms in their house at a low figure. They were not lacking in sympathy for young “Mrs. Lennox,” but their disposition to ask questions made Anna shun them as she would have an infection. After her mother’s death, they tried harder than ever to be kind to her, but the listless girl, who spent her days gazing at nothing, was hardly aware of their comings and goings.
“If you would only try to eat a bit, my dear,” said the corpulent Mrs. Smith, bustling into Anna’s room. “And land sakes, don’t take on so. There you set in that chair all day long. Just rouse yourself, my dear; there ain’t no trouble, however bad, but could be wuss.”
To this dismal philosophy, Anna would return a wan smile, while she felt her heart almost break within her.
“And, Mrs. Lennox, don’t mind what I say to you. I am old enough to be your grandmother, but if you have quarreled with any one, don’t be too spunky now about making up. Spunk is all right in its place, but its place ain’t at the bedside of a young woman who’s got to face the trial of her life. If you have quarreled with any one—your—your husband, say, now is the time to make it up, since your ma is gone.”
The old woman looked at her with a strange mixture of motherliness and curiosity. As she said to her husband a dozen times a day, “her heart just ached for that pore young thing upstairs,” but this tender solicitude did not prevent her ears from aching, at the same time, to hear Anna’s story.
“Thank you very much for your kind interest, Mrs. Smith; but really, you must let me judge of my own affairs.” There was a dignity about the girl that brooked no further interference.
“That’s right, my dear, and I wouldn’t have thought of suggesting it, but you do seem that young—well, I must be going down to put the potatoes on for dinner. If you want anything, just ring your bell.”