‘Not so,’ I said: ’to-morrow
shall be sweet;
To-night is not so sweet as coming days.’
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Then first I saw that he had turned his feet,
Had turned from me his face:
Running and flying miles and miles he went,
But once looked back to beckon with his
hand
And cry: ’Come home, O love, from banishment:
Come to the distant land.’
That night destroyed me like an avalanche;
One night turned all my summer back to
snow:
Next morning not a bird upon my branch,
Not a lamb woke below,—
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No bird, no lamb, no living breathing thing;
No squirrel scampered on my breezy lawn,
No mouse lodged by his hoard: all joys took wing
And fled before that dawn.
Azure and sun were starved from heaven above,
No dew had fallen, but biting frost lay
hoar:
O love, I knew that I should meet my love,
Should find my love no more.
‘My love no more,’ I muttered stunned
with pain:
I shed no tear, I wrung no passionate
hand, 90
Till something whispered: ’You shall meet
again,
Meet in a distant land.’
Then with a cry like famine I arose,
I lit my candle, searched from room to
room,
Searched up and down; a war of winds that froze
Swept through the blank of gloom.
I searched day after day, night after night;
Scant change there came to me of night
or day:
‘No more,’ I wailed, ‘no more:’
and trimmed my light,
And gnashed but did not pray,
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Until my heart broke and my spirit broke:
Upon the frost-bound floor I stumbled,
fell,
And moaned: ’It is enough: withhold
the stroke.
Farewell, O love, farewell.’
Then life swooned from me. And I heard the song
Of spheres and spirits rejoicing over
me:
One cried: ’Our sister, she hath suffered
long.’—
One answered: ’Make her see.’—
One cried: ’Oh blessed she who no more
pain,
Who no more disappointment shall receive.’—
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One answered: ’Not so: she must live
again;
Strengthen thou her to live.’
So while I lay entranced a curtain seemed
To shrivel with crackling from before
my face;
Across mine eyes a waxing radiance beamed
And showed a certain place.
I saw a vision of a woman, where
Night and new morning strive for domination;
Incomparably pale, and almost fair,
And sad beyond expression.
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Her eyes were like some fire-enshrining gem,
Were stately like the stars, and yet were
tender;
Her figure charmed me like a windy stem
Quivering and drooped and slender.
I stood upon the outer barren ground,
She stood on inner ground that budded
flowers;
While circling in their never-slackening round
Danced by the mystic hours.