These were the first words that met her eyes.  Her fingers closed automatically over the paper, crushing it into her palm.  Could she need any more proof than that?  That a settlement and dealing with a relationship such as theirs must be worded in such a way, carried no weight with it to her mind.  She knew then, that when he had alluded to the event of his death, it had been farthest from his thoughts.  He had meant their separation.  In three years—­a little more than three years it had come.  He was tired of her.  She knew well then how useless had been her efforts to move him to passion the night before.  Her cheeks flamed, thinking that it had not been because he was unconscious of her attempt.  He had seen it.  There was no doubt in her mind that when he had told her to fasten her dressing-gown, when he had noticed the perfumes of scent from her hair, he had realized the motive that was acting within her.  But he was tired—­satiated.  And how he must have loathed her!  Yet no greater than she, at that moment, loathed herself.  He knew—­of course he knew—­that her coming down to get the book had all been an excuse.  He had probably thought that her desire had been for herself.  How could he possibly have known that she felt no desire, had been frigid, cold, without a strain of passion in her thoughts, seeking only to tempt him to her side, for his pleasure alone, with the delights of her body?  How could he have known?  He did not know!  Of a certainty he must have thought that it was her own satisfaction she was seeking.  The blood raced back from her cheeks, leaving her shivering and cold.  Oh, how he must have loathed her!  Why had she done it?  Why was there not some illuminating power to point out the intricacy of the ways when people came to such a maze in life as this?

In a torture of shame that blent with all her misery, she flung herself, dressed as she was, on to the bed.  Let him find her there—­what did it matter!  She realized that she had lost everything.  And there she lay, eyes burning and dry, heart just beating faintly in her breast.  But when she heard his footsteps mounting the stairs, she suddenly got up.  If he knew that she had followed them, he would never forgive her.  So, in the midst of her misery, she still found the strength to hope.  Jumping up from the bed she stood before her mirror and began to take off her hat as though she had that moment returned.

When his knock fell on the door, she forced fear from her voice, drove eagerness into the place of it, and called him to enter.

The door opened.  In the mirror’s reflection, she could see him stop abruptly as he came into the room.  With hands still lifted, extricating the pins from her hat, she turned.  His lips were tight closed, his eyes merciless.  So he had looked that day at Apsley when he had returned to find his sister with her in the dining-room.  So he had directed his gaze upon the woman whom she had heard him cross-examine in the Law Courts.  The suspicion leapt to her mind that he knew, that he had seen her; but having steeled herself to tell the lie, she did not attempt, in the sudden moment, to reconstruct her mind to a hasty admission of the truth.  She must tell the lie, clinging to it through everything.