of himself that Samuel Rutherford made among the siftings
and buffetings of his Aberdeen exile. Writing
to Lady Culross, he says:—’O my guiltiness,
the follies of my youth and the neglects of my calling,
they all do stare me in the face here; . . . the world
hath sadly mistaken me: no man knoweth what guiltiness
is in me.’ And to Lady Boyd, speaking
of some great lessons he had learnt in the school of
adversity, he says, ’In the third place, I have
seen here my abominable vileness, and it is such that
if I were well known no one in all the kingdom would
ask me how I do. . . . I am a deeper hypocrite
and a shallower professor than any one could believe.
Madam, pity me, the chief of sinners.’
And, again, to the Laird of Carlton: ’Woe,
woe is me, that men should think there is anything
in me. The house-devils that keep me company
and this sink of corruption make me to carry low sails.
. . . But, howbeit I am a wretched captive of
sin, yet my Lord can hew heaven out of worse timber
than I am, if worse there be.’ And to Lady
Kenmure: ’I am somebody in the books of
my friends, . . . but there are armies of thoughts
within me, saying the contrary, and laughing at the
mistakes of my many friends. Oh! if my inner
side were only seen!’ Ah no, my brethren, no
land is so fearful to them that are sent to search
it out as their own heart. ’The land,’
said the ten spies, ’is a land that eateth up
the inhabitants thereof; the cities are walled up
to heaven, and very great, and the children of Anak
dwell in them. We were in their sight as grasshoppers,
and so we were in our own sight.’ Ah, no!
no stair is so steep as the stair of sanctification,
no bread is so salt as that which is baked for a man
of God out of the wild oats of his past sin and his
present sinfulness. Even Joshua and Caleb, who
brought back a good report of the land, did not deny
that the children of Anak were there, or that their
walls went up to heaven, or that they, the spies, were
as grasshoppers before their foes: Caleb and
Joshua only said that, in spite of all that, if the
Lord delighted in His people, He both could and would
give them a land flowing with milk and honey.
And be it recorded and remembered to his credit and
his praise that, with all his self-discoveries and
self-accusings, Rutherford did not utter one single
word of doubt or despair; so far from that was he,
that in one of his letters to Hugh M’Kail he
tells us that some of his correspondents have written
to him that he is possibly too joyful under the cross.
Blunt old Knockbrex, for one, wrote to his old minister
to restrain somewhat his ecstasy. So true was
it, what Rutherford said of himself to David Dickson,
that he was ’made up of extremes.’
So he was, for I know no man among all my masters
in personal religion who unites greater extremes in
himself than Samuel Rutherford. Who weeps like
Rutherford over his banishment from Anwoth, while all
the time who is so feasted in Christ’s palace
in Aberdeen? Who loathes himself like Rutherford?
Not Bunyan, not Brea, not Boston; and, at the same
time, who is so transported and lost to himself in
the beauty and sweetness of Christ? As we read
his raptures we almost say with cautious old Knockbrex,
that possibly Rutherford is somewhat too full of ecstasy
for this fallen, still unsanctified, and still so slippery
world.