When any misfortune falls upon a Hebrew household,
when any Jewish man or woman’s sin finds them
out, they say that there is an ounce of the golden
calf on it. They open their Exodus and they
read there in their bitterness of how Moses in his
hot anger took the calf, which the children of Israel
had polluted themselves with, and burned it in the
fire, and ground it to powder, and strewed it upon
the water, and made the children of Israel to drink
of it. And, though God turned the poisoned,
dust-laden waters of Samuel Rutherford’s life
into very milk and wine, yet to Rutherford’s
subtle and detective taste there was always a certain
tang of the unclean and accursed thing in it.
The best waled and most tenderly substituted cross
in Rutherford’s chastised life had always a certain
galling corner in it that recalled to him, as he bled
inwardly under it, the lack of complete purity and
strict regularity in his youth. And it is to
be feared that there are but too few men or women
either who have not some Rutherford-like memory behind
them that still clouds their now sheltered life and
secretly poisons their good conscience. Some
disingenuity, some simulation or dissimulation of
affection, some downright or constructive dishonesty,
some lack towards some one of open and entire integrity,
some breach of good faith in spirit if not in letter,
some still stinging tresspass of the golden rule,
some horn or hoof of the golden calf, the bitter dust
of which they taste to this day in their sweetest cup
and at their most grace-spread table. There
are more men and women in the Church of Christ than
any one would believe who sing with a broken heart
at every communion table: ’He hath not dealt
with us after our sins, nor rewarded us according
to our iniquities. As far as the east is from
the west, so far hath He removed our transgressions
from us.’
And even after such men and women might have learned
a lesson, how soon we see all that lesson forgotten.
Even after God’s own hand has so conspicuously
cut the bars of iron in sunder; after He has made the
solitary to dwell in families; we still see sin continuing
in new shapes and in other forms to poison the sweetest
things in human life. What selfishness we see
in family life, and that, too, after the vow and the
intention of what self-suppression and self-denial.
What impatience with one another, what bad temper,
what cruel and cutting words, what coldness and rudeness
and neglect, in how many ways our abiding sinfulness
continues to poison the sweetest springs of life!
And, then, how soon such unhappy men begin to see
themselves reproduced and multiplied in their children.
How many fathers see, with a secret bitterness of
spirit that never can be told, their own worst vices
of character and conduct reproduced and perpetuated
in their children! One father sees his constitutional
and unextirpated sensuality coming out in the gluttony,
the drunkenness, and the lust of his son; while another