She was going away, down into Cornwall, in two days.  She would stay in rooms by herself at Marazion and finish her book and bathe and climb, and lie in the sun (if only it came out) and sleep and eat and drink.  There was nothing in the world like your own company; you could be purely animal then.  And in a month Gerda and Kay were coming down, and they were going to bicycle along the coast, and she would ask Barry to come too, and when Barry came she would let him say what he liked, with no more fencing, no more cover.  Down by the green edge of the Cornish sea they would have it out—­“grip hard, become a root ...” become men as trees walking, rooted in a quiet dream.  Dream?  No, reality.  This was the dream, this world of slipping shadows and hurrying gleams of heartbreaking loveliness, through which one roamed, a child chasing butterflies which ever escaped, or which, if captured, crumbled to dust in one’s clutching hands.  Oh for something strong and firm to hold.  Oh Barry, Barry, these few more weeks of dream, of slipping golden shadows and wavering lights, and then reality.  Shall I write, thought Nan, “Dear Barry, you may ask me to marry you now.”  Impossible.  Besides, what hurry was there?  Better to have these few more gay and lovely weeks of dream.  They would be the last.

Has Barry squandered and spilt his love about as I mine?  Likely enough.  Likely enough not.  Who cares?  Perhaps we shall tell one another all these things sometime; perhaps, again, we shan’t.  What matter?  One loves, and passes on, and loves again.  One’s heart cracks and mends; one cracks the hearts of others, and these mend too.  That is—­inter alia—­what life is for.  If one day you want the tale of my life, Barry, you shall have it; though that’s not what life is for, to make a tale about.  So thrilling in the living, so flat and stale in the telling—­oh let’s get on and live some more of it, lots and lots more, and let the dead past bury its dead.

Between a laugh and a sleepy yawn, Nan jumped from the bus at the corner of Oakley Street.

CHAPTER V

SEAWEED

1

“Complexes,” read Mrs. Hilary, “are of all sorts and sizes.”  And there was a picture of four of them in a row, looking like netted cherry trees whose nets have got entangled with each other.  So that was what they were like.  Mrs. Hilary had previously thought of them as being more of the nature of noxious insects, or fibrous growths with infinite ramifications.  Slim young trees.  Not so bad, then, after all.

“A complex is characterised, and its elements are bound together by a specific emotional tone, experienced as feeling when the complex is aroused.  Apart from the mental processes and corresponding actions depending on purely rational mental systems, it is through complexes that the typical mental process (the specific response) works, the particular complex representing the particular set of mental elements involved in the process which begins with perception and cognition and ends with the corresponding conation.”