never went beyond a repetition of it all—only
for her father she, perhaps, substituted Monsieur
Horace: for Monsieur Horace, we may be sure,
was not forgotten, any more than her promise to him;
though, indeed, this last had been so long in abeyance
that she had ceased to think of it as likely to be
speedily fulfilled. She had almost come to regard
it as one of the many things referred to that somewhat
vague period when she should be grown up, and when,
in some way—how she did not know—she
would be released from the convent and from Aunt Therese,
and be at liberty to come and go as she pleased.
In the meantime she had almost given up hoping for
Monsieur Horace’s return. The time when
she had last seen him and heard from him already seemed
so remote to her childish memory. No one ever
spoke to her about him, and he never wrote to her.
She did not for a moment think he had forgotten her;
she had too much confidence in him for that; but by
degrees a notion, vague at first, but gradually becoming
a fixed idea destined to have results, established
itself in foolish little Madelon’s head, that
he was waiting till he should hear from her that his
fortune was made before he would come back to her.
Madelon would get quite unhappy when she thought of
this— he must think her so faithless and
forgetful, yet how could she help it? That the
promise had made as deep an impression upon him as
upon her she never doubted for a moment; and was it
not most possible, and even probable, that he was expecting
to hear of the result, perhaps even in want of this
wonderful fortune, on which he must be counting?
It was a sad thought, this, to our Madelon, but gradually
it became a confirmed one in her mind.
How long this state of things would have lasted—whether,
with the fading of childish impressions, present abiding
influences might have taken possession of her, whether,
some few years hence, some sudden development of her
devotional tendencies might have roused her latent
powers of enthusiasm, and turned them in a new direction
just at the moment when youthful ardour is most readily
kindled, and tender, fervent hearts most easily touched—whether,
in such a case, our little Madelon, inspired with
new beliefs, would have renounced her old life in
the fervour of her acceptance of the new, and, after
all, have taken the nun’s vows, and been content
to allow her native energy and earnestness to find
scope in the loftiest aspirations of a convent life—all
this can never now be known. Something there
was in her character which, under certain conditions,
might have developed in such a direction. The
time might, indeed, surely would have come, had she
remained in the convent, when a sudden need and hunger
for sympathy, and perhaps excitement, would have risen
in her soul, too keen and imperative to be satisfied
with past memories; and when, in the absence of all
support and friendship in the outer world, she might
have seized on whatever she could find in the narrow