On her pallid cheek and forehead came a color and
a light,
As I have seen the rosy red flushing in the northern
night.
And she turned,—her bosom shaken with a
sudden storm of sighs;
All the spirit deeply dawning in the dark of hazel
eyes,—
Saying, “I have hid my feelings, fearing they
should do me wrong;”
Saying, “Dost thou love me, cousin?” weeping,
“I have loved thee long.”
Love took up the glass of time, and turned it in his
glowing hands;
Every moment, lightly shaken, ran itself in golden
sands.
Love took up the harp of life, and smote on all the
chords with might;
Smote the chord of self, that, trembling, passed in
music out of sight.
Many a morning on the moorland did we hear the copses
ring,
And her whisper thronged my pulses with the fulness
of the spring.
Many an evening by the water did we watch the stately
ships,
And our spirits rushed together at the touching of
the lips.
O my cousin, shallow-hearted! O my Amy, mine
no more!
O the dreary, dreary moorland! O the barren,
barren shore!
Falser than all fancy fathoms, falser than all songs
have sung,—
Puppet to a father’s threat, and servile to
a shrewish tongue!
Is it well to wish thee happy?—having known
me; to decline
On a range of lower feelings and a narrower heart
than mine!
Yet it shall be: thou shalt lower to his level
day by day,
What is fine within thee growing coarse to sympathize
with clay.
As the husband is, the wife is; thou art mated with
a clown,
And the grossness of his nature will have weight to
drag thee down.
He will hold thee, when his passion shall have spent
its novel force,
Something better than his dog, a little dearer than
his horse.
What is this? his eyes are heavy,—think
not they are glazed with wine.
Go to him; it is thy duty,—kiss him; take
his hand in thine.
It may be my lord is weary, that his brain is over
wrought,—
Soothe him with thy finer fancies, touch him with
thy lighter thought.
He will answer to the purpose, easy things to understand,—
Better thou wert dead before me, though I slew thee
with my hand.
Better thou and I were lying, hidden from the heart’s
disgrace,
Rolled in one another’s arms, and silent in
a last embrace.
Cursed be the social wants that sin against the strength
of youth!
Cursed be the social lies that warp us from the living
truth!
Cursed be the sickly forms that err from honest nature’s
rule
Cursed be the gold that gilds the straitened forehead
of the fool!
Well—’t is well that I should bluster!—Hadst
thou less unworthy proved,
Would to God—for I had loved thee more
than ever wife was loved.
Am I mad, that I should cherish that which bears but
bitter fruit?
I will pluck it from my bosom, though my heart be
at the root.