me. This has never been from under my own lock
and key, or out of my own hands. No mortal ever
knew from me, that these questions had been proposed.
Perhaps I ought to except one person, who possesses
all my confidence, as he has possessed yours.
I do not remember, indeed, that I communicated it
even to him. But as I was in the habit of unlimited
trust and counsel with him, it is possible I may have
read it to him; no more: for the quire of which
it makes a part was never in any hand but my own,
nor was a word ever copied or taken down from it, by
any body. I take on myself, without fear, any
divulgation on his part. We both know him incapable
of it. From myself, then, or my paper, this publication
has never been derived. I have formerly mentioned
to you, that from a very early period of my life,
I had laid it down as a rule of conduct never to write
a word for the public papers. From this, I have
never departed in a single instance; and on a late
occasion, when all the world seemed to be writing,
besides a rigid adherence to my own rule, I can say
with truth, that not a line for the press was ever
communicated to me, by any other, except a single
petition referred for my correction; which I did not
correct, however, though the contrary, as I have heard,
was said in a public place, by one person through error,
through malice by another. I learn that this last
has thought it worth his while to try to sow tares
between you and me, by representing me as still engaged
in the bustle of politics, and in turbulence and intrigue
against the government. I never believed for a
moment that this could make any impression on you,
or that your knowledge of me would not overweigh the
slander of an intriguer, dirtily employed in sifting
the conversations of my table, where alone he could
hear of me; and seeking to atone for his sins against
you by sins against another, who had never done him
any other injury than that of declining his confidences.
Political conversations I really dislike, and therefore
avoid where I can without affectation. But when
urged by others, I have never conceived that having
been in public life requires me to belie my sentiments,
or even to conceal them. When I am led by conversation
to express them, I do it with the same independence
here, which I have practised every where, and which
is inseparable from my nature. But enough of
this miserable tergiversator, who ought indeed either
to have been of more truth, or less trusted by his
country.*
[* Here, in the margin
of the copy, is written, apparently
at a later date, * General
H. Lee.’]