One tenderer word, a
little longer kiss,
Will fill
my soul with music and with song;
And if you seem abstracted,
or I miss
The heart-tone
from your voice, my world goes wrong.
And oftentimes you think
me childish—weak—
When at
some thoughtless word the tears will start;
You cannot understand
how aught you speak
Has power
to stir the depths of my poor heart.
I cannot help it, dear,—I
wish I could,
Or feign
indifference where I now adore;
For if I seemed to love
you less you would,
Manlike,
I have no doubt, love me the more.
’Tis a sad gift,
that much applauded thing,
A constant
heart; for fact doth daily prove
That constancy finds
oft a cruel sting,
While fickle
natures win the deeper love.
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[Illustration: COMMON LOT]
INDIVIDUALITY.
O yes, I love you, and
with all my heart;
Just as
a weaker woman loves her own,
Better than I love my
beloved art,
Which, till
you came, reigned royally, alone,
My king, my master.
Since I saw your face
I have dethroned it,
and you hold that place.
I am as weak as other
women are:
Your frown
can make the whole world like a tomb;
Your smile shines brighter
than the sun, by far.
Sometimes
I think there is not space or room
In all the earth for
such a love as mine,
And it soars up to breathe
in realms divine.
I know that your desertion
or neglect
Could break
my heart, as women’s hearts do break.
If my wan days had nothing
to expect
From your
love’s splendor, all joy would forsake
The chambers of my soul.
Yes, this is true.
And yet, and yet—one
thing I keep from you.
There is a subtle part
of me, which went
Into my
long pursued and worshipped art;
Though your great love
fills me with such content
No other
love finds room now, in my heart.
Yet that rare essence
was my art’s alone.
Thank God, you cannot
grasp it; ’tis mine own.
Thank God, I say, for
while I love you so,
With that vast love,
as passionate as tender,
I feel an exultation
as I know
I have not made you
a complete surrender.
Here is my body; bruise
it, if you will,
And break my heart;
I have that something still.
You cannot grasp it.
Seize the breath of morn
Or bind
the perfume of the rose, as well.
God put it in my soul
when I was born;
It is not
mine to give away, or sell,
Or offer up on any altar
shrine.
It was my art’s;
and when not art’s, ’tis mine,