Through rivers of veins
on the nameless quest
The tide
of my life goes hurriedly sweeping,
Till it reaches that
curious wheel o’ the breast,
The human heart, which
is never at rest.
Faster,
faster, it cries, and leaping,
Plunging, dashing, speeding
away,
The wheel and the river
work night and day.
I know not wherefore,
I know not whither,
This strange
tide rushes with such mad force:
It glides on hither,
it slides on thither,
Over and
over the selfsame course,
With never
an outlet and never a source;
And it lashes itself
to the heat of passion
And whirls the heart
in a mill-wheel fashion.
I can hear in the hush
of the still, still night,
The ceaseless
sound of that mighty river;
I can hear it gushing,
gurgling, rushing,
With a wild, delirious,
strange delight,
And a conscious pride
in its sense of might,
As it hurries
and worries my heart forever.
And I wonder oft as
I lie awake,
And list
to the river that seethes and surges
Over the wheel that
it chides and urges—
I wonder oft if that
wheel will break
With the
mighty pressure it bears, some day,
Or slowly
and wearily wear away.
For little by little
the heart is wearing,
Like the wheel of the
mill, as the tide goes tearing
And plunging
hurriedly through my breast,
In a network
of veins on a nameless quest,
From and forth, unto
unknown oceans,
Bringing its cargoes
of fierce emotions,
With never
a pause or an hour for rest.
A MEETING.
Quite carelessly I turned
the newsy sheet;
A song I
sang, full many a year ago,
Smiled up at me, as
in a busy street
One meets
an old-time friend he used to know.
So full it was, that
simple little song,
Of all the
hope, the transport, and the truth,
Which to the impetuous
morn of life belong,
That once
again I seemed to grasp my youth.
So full it was of that
sweet, fancied pain
We woo and
cherish ere we meet with woe,
I felt as one who hears
a plaintive strain
His mother
sang him in the long ago.
Up from the grave the
years that lay between
That song’s
birthday and my stern present came
Like phantom forms and
swept across the scene,
Bearing
their broken dreams of love and fame.
Fair hopes and bright
ambitions that I knew
In that
old time, with their ideal grace,
Shone for a moment,
then were lost to view
Behind the
dull clouds of the commonplace.
With trembling hands
I put the sheet away;
Ah, little
song! the sad and bitter truth
Struck like an arrow
when we met that day!
My life
has missed the promise of its youth.