Our Lord has granted me the grace never to fear the conflict; at all costs I must do my duty.  I have more than once been told:  “If you want me to obey, you must be gentle and not severe, otherwise you will gain nothing.”  But no one is a good judge in his own case.  During a painful operation a child will be sure to cry out and say that the remedy is worse than the disease; but if after a few days he is cured, then he is greatly delighted that he can run about and play.  And it is the same with souls:  they soon recognise that a little bitter is better than too much sweet, and they are not afraid to make the acknowledgment.  Sometimes the change which takes place from one day to another seems almost magical.

A novice will say to me:  “You did well to be severe yesterday; at first I was indignant, but when I thought it all over, I saw that you were quite right.  I left your cell thinking:  ’This ends it.  I will tell Our Mother that I shall never go to Soeur Therese again’; but I knew this was the devil’s suggestion, and then I felt you were praying for me, and I grew calm.  I began to see things more clearly, and now I come to you for further guidance.”

I am only too happy to follow the dictates of my heart and hasten to console with a little sweetness, but I see that one must not press forward too quickly—­a word might undo the work that cost so many tears.  If I say the least thing which seems to tone down the hard truths of the previous day, I see my little Sister trying to take advantage of the opening thus given her.  At once I have recourse to prayer, I turn to Our Blessed Lady, and Jesus always triumphs.  Verily in prayer and sacrifice lies all my strength, they are my invincible arms; experience has taught me that they touch hearts far more easily than words.

Two years ago, during Lent, a novice came to me smiling, and said:  “You would never imagine what I dreamt last night—­I thought I was with my sister, who is so worldly, and I wanted to withdraw her from all vain things; to this end I explained the words of your hymn: 

’They richly lose who love Thee, dearest Lord; Thine are my perfumes, Thine for evermore.’

I felt that my words sank deep into her soul, and I was overjoyed.  This morning it seems to me that perhaps Our Lord would like me to gain Him this soul.  How would it do if I wrote at Easter and described my dream, telling her that Jesus desires to have her for His Spouse?” I answered that she might certainly ask permission.

As Lent was not nearly over, you were surprised, dear Mother, at such a premature request, and, evidently guided by God, you replied that Carmelites should save souls by prayer rather than by letters.  When I heard your decision I said to the little Sister:  “We must set to work and pray hard; if our prayers are answered at the end of Lent, what a joy it will be!” O Infinite Mercy of our Lord!  At the close of Lent, one soul more had given herself to God.  It was a real miracle of grace —­a miracle obtained through the fervour of a humble novice.