Even so resolute a spirit as Milton’s could hardly contemplate the relinquishment of every definite calling in life without misgiving, and his friends could hardly let it pass without remonstrance. There exists in his hand the draft of a letter of reply to the verbal admonition of some well-wisher, to whom he evidently feels that he owes deference. His friend seems to have thought that he was yielding to the allurements of aimless study, neglecting to return as service what he had absorbed as knowledge. Milton pleads that his motive must be higher than the love of lettered ease, for that alone could never overcome the incentives that urge him to action. “Why should not all the hopes that forward youth and vanity are afledge with, together with gain, pride, and ambition, call me forward more powerfully than a poor, regardless, and unprofitable sin of curiosity should be able to withhold?” And what of the “desire of honour and repute and immortal fame seated in the breast of every true scholar?” That his correspondent may the better understand him, he encloses a “Petrarchean sonnet,” recently composed, on his twenty-third birthday, not one of his best, but precious as the first of his frequent reckonings with himself:—
“How soon hath Time, the subtle
thief of youth,
Stolen on his
wing my three-and-twentieth year!
My hasting days
fly on with full career;
But my late spring
no bud or blossom shew’th.
Perhaps my semblance might
deceive the truth,
That I to manhood
am arrived so near;
And inward ripeness
doth much less appear,
Than some more
timely-happy spirits indu’th.
Yet be it less or more, or
soon or slow,
It shall be still
in strictest measure even
To that same lot,
however mean or high,
Towards which Time leads me,
and the Will of Heaven.
All is, if I have
grace to use it so,
As ever in my
great Taskmaster’s eye.”