He used to love, when women
friends were near,
To whisper things he might have said aloud
That he might touch thy face
and kiss thine ear;
Unheard and even unseen, no longer proud,
He now must send this yearning message
by a cloud.
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According to the treatise called “Virtues Banner,” a lover has four solaces in separation: first, looking at objects that remind him of her he loves;
’I see thy limbs in
graceful-creeping vines,
Thy glances in the eyes of gentle deer,
Thine eyebrows in the ripple’s
dancing lines,
Thy locks in plumes, thy face in moonlight
clear—
Ah, jealous! But the whole sweet
image is not here.
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second, painting a picture of her;
And when I paint that loving
jealousy
With chalk upon the rock, and my caress
As at thy feet I lie, I cannot
see
Through tears that to mine eyes unbidden
press—
So stern a fate denies a painted happiness.
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third, dreaming of her;
And when I toss mine arms
to clasp thee tight,
Mine own though but in visions of a dream—
They who behold the oft-repeated
sight,
The kind divinities of wood and stream,
Let fall great pearly tears that on the
blossoms gleam.
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fourth, touching something which she
has touched.
Himalaya’s breeze blows
gently from the north,
Unsheathing twigs upon the deodar
And sweet with sap that it
entices forth—
I embrace it lovingly; it came so far,
Perhaps it touched thee first, my life’s
unchanging star!
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Oh, might the long, long night
seem short to me!
Oh, might the day his hourly tortures
hide!
Such longings for the things
that cannot be,
Consume my helpless heart, sweet-glancing
bride,
In burning agonies of absence from thy
side.
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The bride is besought not to lose heart
at
hearing of her lover’s wretchedness,
Yet much reflection, dearest,
makes me strong,
Strong with an inner strength; nor shouldst
thou feel
Despair at what has come to
us of wrong;
Who has unending woe or lasting weal?
Our fates move up and down upon a circling
wheel.
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and to remember that the curse has its appointed end, when the rainy season is over and the year of exile fulfilled. Vishnu spends the rainy months in sleep upon the back of the cosmic serpent Shesha.
When Vishnu rises from his
serpent bed
The curse is ended; close thine eyelids
tight
And wait till only four months
more are sped;
Then we shall taste each long-desired
delight
Through nights that the full autumn moon
illumines bright.
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