even though bought by uniform particular failures.
No advantages, no powers, no gold or force can be
any match for him. I cannot choose but rely on
my own poverty, more than on your wealth. I cannot
make your consciousness tantamount to mine. Only
the star dazzles; the planet has a faint, moon-like
ray. I hear what you say of the admirable parts
and tried temper of the party you praise, but I see
well that for all his purple cloaks I shall not like
him, unless he is at least a poor Greek like me.
I cannot deny it, O friend, that the vast shadow of
the Phenomenal includes thee, also, in its pied and
painted immensity,—thee, also, compared
with whom all else is shadow. Thou art not Being,
as Truth is, as Justice is,—thou art not
my soul, but a picture and effigy of that. Thou
hast come to me lately, and already thou art seizing
thy hat and cloak. It is not that the soul puts
forth friends, as the tree puts forth leaves, and
presently, by the germination of new buds, extrudes
the old leaf?[293] The law of nature is alternation
forevermore. Each electrical state superinduces
the opposite. The soul environs itself with friends,
that it may enter into a grander self-acquaintance
or solitude; and it goes alone, for a season, that
it may exalt its conversation or society. This
method betrays itself along the whole history of our
personal relations. The instinct of affection
revives the hope of union with our mates, and the
returning sense of insulation recalls us from the chase.
Thus every man passes his life in the search after
friendship, and if he should record his true sentiment,
he might write a letter like this, to each new candidate
for his love:—
DEAR FRIEND:—
If I was sure of thee, sure of thy
capacity, sure to match my mood with thine, I
should never think again of trifles, in relation
to thy comings and goings. I am not very wise;
my moods are quite attainable; and I respect thy
genius; it is to me as yet unfathomed; yet dare
I not presume in thee a perfect intelligence
of me, and so thou art to me a delicious torment.
Thine ever, or never.
8. Yet these uneasy pleasures and fine pains
are for curiosity, and not for life. They are
not to be indulged. This is to weave cobweb,
and not cloth. Our friendships hurry to short
and poor conclusions, because we have made them a
texture of wine and dreams,[294] instead of the tough
fiber of the human heart. The laws of friendship
are great, austere, and eternal, of one web with the
laws of nature and of morals. But we have aimed
at a swift and petty benefit, to suck a sudden sweetness.
We snatch at the slowest fruit in the whole garden
of God, which many summers and many winters must ripen.
We seek our friend not sacredly but with an adulterate
passion which would appropriate him to ourselves.
In vain. We are armed all over with subtle antagonisms,
which, as soon as we meet, begin to play, and translate
all poetry into stale prose. Almost all people