his circumstances: he who is condemned by the
law has a term to his banishment, or a dream
of its abbreviation; or, it may be, the knowledge
or the belief of some injustice of the law or of its
administration in his own particular: but he who
is outlawed by general opinion, without the intervention
of hostile politics, illegal judgment, or embarrassed
circumstances, whether he be innocent or guilty,
must undergo all the bitterness of exile, without
hope, without pride, without alleviation. This
case was mine. Upon what grounds the public
founded their opinion, I am not aware; but it
was general, and it was decisive. Of me or of
mine they knew little, except that I had written
what is called poetry, was a nobleman, had married,
became a father, and was involved in differences
with my wife and her relatives, no one knew why, because
the persons complaining refused to state their grievances.
The fashionable world was divided into parties,
mine consisting of a very small minority; the
reasonable world was naturally on the stronger
side, which happened to be the lady’s, as was
most proper and polite. The press was active
and scurrilous; and such was the rage of the
day, that the unfortunate publication of two copies
of verses rather complimentary than otherwise
to the subjects, of both, was tortured into a
species of crime, or constructive petty treason.
I was accused of every monstrous vice by public rumour
and private rancour: my name, which had
been a knightly or a noble one since my fathers
helped to conquer the kingdom for William the Norman,
was tainted. I felt that, if what was whispered,
and muttered, and murmured, was true, I was unfit
for England; if false, England was unfit for
me. I withdrew: but this was not enough.
In other countries, in Switzerland, in the shadow of
the Alps, and by the blue depth of the lakes,
I was pursued and breathed upon by the same blight.
I crossed the mountains, but it was the same;
so I went a little farther, and settled myself by the
waves of the Adriatic, like the stag at bay, who
betakes him to the waters.
“If I may judge by the statements of the few friends who gathered round me, the outcry of the period to which I allude was beyond all precedent, all parallel, even in those cases where political motives have sharpened slander and doubled enmity. I was advised not to go to the theatres, lest I should be hissed, nor to my duty in parliament, lest I should be insulted by the way; even on the day of my departure, my most intimate friend told me afterwards that he was under apprehensions of violence from the people who might be assembled at the door of the carriage. However, I was not deterred by these counsels from seeing Kean in his best characters, nor from voting according to my principles; and, with regard to the third and last apprehensions of my friends, I could not share in them, not being made acquainted with their extent till some time after I had crossed the Channel. Even if I had been so, I