The first he wrote at a time which may be considered,
to use his own words, as “the most poetical
part of his whole life,”—
not
certainly, in what regarded the powers of his genius,
to which every succeeding year added new force and
range, but in all that may be said to constitute the
poetry of character,—those fresh, unworldly
feelings of which, in spite of his early plunge into
experience, he still retained the gloss, and that
ennobling light of imagination, which, with all his
professed scorn of mankind, still followed in the
track of his affections, giving a lustre to every
object on which they rested. There was, indeed,
in his misanthropy, as in his sorrows, at that period,
to the full as much of fancy as of reality; and even
those gallantries and loves in which he at the same
time entangled himself partook equally, as I have endeavoured
to show, of the same imaginative character. Though
brought early under the dominion of the senses, he
had been also early rescued from this thraldom by,
in the first place, the satiety such excesses never
fail to produce, and, at no long interval after, by
this series of half-fanciful attachments which, though
in their moral consequences to society, perhaps, still
more mischievous, had the varnish at least of refinement
on the surface, and by the novelty and apparent difficulty
that invested them served to keep alive that illusion
of imagination from which such pursuits derive their
sole redeeming charm.
With such a mixture, or rather predominance, of the
ideal in his loves, his hates, and his sorrows, the
state of his existence at that period, animated as
it was, and kept buoyant, by such a flow of success,
must be acknowledged, even with every deduction for
the unpicturesque associations of a London life, to
have been, in a high degree, poetical, and to have
worn round it altogether a sort of halo of romance,
which the events that followed were but too much calculated
to dissipate. By his marriage, and its results,
he was again brought back to some of those bitter
realities of which his youth had had a foretaste.
Pecuniary embarrassment—that ordeal, of
all others, the most trying to delicacy and high-mindedness—now
beset him with all the indignities that usually follow
in its train; and he was thus rudely schooled into
the advantages of possessing money, when he
had hitherto thought but of the generous pleasure
of dispensing it. No stronger proof, indeed,
is wanting of the effect of such difficulties in tempering
down even the most chivalrous pride, than the necessity
to which he found himself reduced in 1816, not only
of departing from his resolution never to profit by
the sale of his works, but of accepting a sum of money,
for copyright, from his publisher, which he had for
some time persisted in refusing for himself, and,
in the full sincerity of his generous heart, had destined
for others.