Not a sob has escaped her
all day,—not a moan;
But now the tide rushes,—for
she is alone.
On the fresh, shining knapsack
she pillows her head,
And weeps as a mourner might
weep for the dead.
She heeds not the three-year
old baby at play,
As donning the cap, on the
carpet he lay;
Till she feels on her forehead,
his fingers’ soft tips,
And on her shut eyelids, the
touch of his lips.
“Mamma is so
sorry!—Mamma is so sad!
But Archie can make her look
up and be glad:
I’ve been praying to
God, as you told me to do,
That Papa may come back when
the battle is thro’:—
He says when we pray, that
our prayers shall be heard;
And Mamma, don’t you
always know, God keeps his word?”
Around the young comforter
stealthily press
The arms of his father with
sudden caress;
Then fast to his heart,—love
and duty at strife,—
He snatches with fondest emotion,
his wife.
“My own love! my precious!—I
feel I am strong;
I know I am brave in opposing
the wrong;
I could stand where the battle
was fiercest, nor feel
One quiver of nerve at the
flash of the steel;
I could gaze on the enemy
guiltless of fears,
But I quail at the sight of
your passionate tears:
My calmness forsakes me,—my
thoughts are a-whirl,
And the stout-hearted man
is as weak as a girl.
I’ve been proud of your
fortitude; never a trace
Of yielding, all day, could
I read in your face;
But a look that was resolute,
dauntless and high,
As ever flashed forth from
a patriot’s eye.
I know how you cling to me,—know
that to part
Is tearing the tenderest cords
of your heart:
Through the length and the
breadth of our Valley to-day,
No hand will a costlier sacrifice
lay
On the altar of Country; and
Alice,—sweet wife!
I never have worshipped you
so in my life!
Poor heart,—that
has held up so brave in the past,—
Poor heart! must it break
with its burden at last?”
The arms thrown about him,
but tighten their hold,
The cheek that he kisses,
is ashy and cold,
And bowed with the grief she
so long has suppressed,
She weeps herself quiet and
calm on his breast.
At length, in a voice just
as steady and clear
As if it had never been choked
by a tear,
She raises her eyes with a
softened control,
And through them her husband
looks into her soul.
“I feel that we each
for the other could die;
Your heart to my own makes
the instant reply:
But dear as you are, Love,—my
life and my light,—
I would not consent to your
stay, if I might:
No!—arm for the
conflict, and on, with the rest;
Virginia has need of her bravest
and best!
My heart—it must
bleed, and my cheek will be wet,
Yet never, believe me, with
selfish regret:
My ardor abates not one jot
of its glow,
Though the tears of the wife
and the woman will flow.